Rate your suicidal thoughts thread (1-10)

[cocainenosejobs]

6

 

[Graytaichi]

7 today

 

[noname223]

4. Feeling better. Today I have started to change my medication. This will be really dangerous. My psychiatrist said I should do it slowly. I am a little bit impatient...Damn this might bring me hell again...not sure if this is a smart idea.

 

[Squiddy]

7. Restarted a new med and while it makes me feel a bit hopeless, I find it's helping with my memory slightly

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

7 But I really want to die now. Every day is reminding how much of a loser am I

 

[noname223]

4. Feeling still better. I am really impatient about the medication that I want to stop. My therapist said very slow but I want to know the result soon....the sooner I know it the better.
Today I saved me a lot of money and my sister will probably soon stop living in my apartment (despite she barely asked my permission.) I am kind of glad about that. But I think I will reduce the medication faster. I think this is not a big difference (for this special kind of medication. There are some who clearly should be reduced very slowly. But imo not this one.

 

[Velvet Fortress]

9. Having to wait sucks. Really considering expediting things even if things get sloppy

 

[deleted]

10 I had to go somewhere with a lot of people and I had a dissociation it's just impossible to live this way there's no hope for me

 

[Of The Universe]

10 I guess!

 

[Graytaichi]

7 for me

 

[cocainenosejobs]

9

 

[S like Siren]

10 i'm absolutly ready

 

[fieldofash]

8
coming to terms with the inevitable

 

[noname223]

4. Feeling okay. I am changing my meds. I am way too impatient. I will do it faster than my psychiatrist said. I see no reason to make it this ridiculous slow. As I said it is way better for me to know it soon. The last time I became very suicidal. I am always writing the same shit. If I followed the advice of my psychiatrist I would probably know nothing the next 3 weeks. I don't want to wait this long.

 

[cocainenosejobs]

10

 

[Desi]

7
blaming myself for not having ordered SN when i had the opportunity

 

[allesistgut]

8

 

[noname223]

5. Maybe a slight differrence. The reduction of the medication might show a first deterioration of my condition.
But there are also other reasons. It was a rough day. I won't go into details but I was extremely hungry today I could not buy something to eat. I almost cried because I was extremely hungry. Moreover I had to play a game which was annoying as fuck. I was invited to a friend.
I hope tomorrow will be a better day.

 

[S like Siren]

10 as always...i'm so tired

 

[Of The Universe]

Ten!!!

 

[BitterlyAlive_]

8. Getting too tempting to set things into motion. It's not impulsive at this point. Just long overdue. Tired of being a burden on everyone, fuck……..

 

[downsolong]

the ten i'm at is numbing. hoping to back off a couple of digits so that i can get my plan a bit tighter.

 

[medicinenightmares]

7

 

[BagofBones]

Today is a 7

 

[noname223]

5, The morning and afternoon were good. But now in the evening something is completely screwing me. I might have made a huge mistake and I am VERY obsessed by it. Damn FUCK IT! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!
As yesterday this is the reason why I cannot write all my thoughts in this forum which is really sad for me. I don't have enough time.

 

[new.solution1]

Ten bro

 

[doli_o]

A fairly solid 9 - having to look for a new place to live and it feels like I could use this moment to CTB (no tenancy, no flatmates, easier to put my stuff into storage/give away etc).

 

[allesistgut]

9

 

[Squiddy]

7.5. I'm still trying to decide whether I want to continue or ctb. I feel like I might be beyond help and I'm too broken, but idk. I hope I can make a decision soon

 

[lucid]

solid 9. not like i'd know how or where right now, but the feeling is there.