Am I the only one who's not ctb just because of depression? I'd say majority of people commit for reasons such as . "Loneliness. No friends . Break ups. Money issues. Divorced. " which I can understand but me personally Im committing just because I don't like existence itself. I don't like the flow of this world. I feel like a slave. I feel like I don't have a choice. The only power I have over my head is taking away my life. That's the only thing that I can say I have control over. Everything else just makes me feel powerless. Like The fact that I was born when I didn't ask for it. The fact that I have to obey the government. The fact that I have to follow a society custom. These things make me powerless. So having the choice to choose when to end it makes me happy. Even though society in majority wants to take control of that one choice you have over you're life. They want to take everything away from you.
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FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 43,449
In my case, life itself is enough of a reason to ctb. I want nothing to do with life at all and nothing could ever make me want to live. I see life as being cruel, unfair and horrifying and I simply prefer the sound of non existence. Life does not interest me as well and I see it as all being so pointless. Existence is completely unnecessary, we were all perfectly fine not existing until we were forced to live.
I can so feel everything you say and I agree. Life is really pointless. People who thinks I'm wrong is stupid respectfully. What's so good about going to school for 24 years and once you get out . You got this little desk and spend the next 50 years of you're life on ? What's so good about bringing another baby against their will here just to condition them the way you were condition to do the same old circle ? The shit is stupid.
Sadly im doing it because of depression. Gave up on getting better. That and I'm also an asshole for leaving my spouse like this. I have a ton of self hatred. I've got one month left.
Depression can sometimes gets better. But it doesn't go away completely once you have it. You're spouse might understand if he/she becomes depressed one day
I hope. I'm always hoping he will forgive me. My goes away but comes right back after a few months. I'm so exhausted from dealing with it. I have one more month and I'll be in a hotel ending my life. It feels strange to think about it but also a relief
My brain won't shut off otherwise.. lol. I have suicidal thoughts 24/7
Lullaby
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- Mar 9, 2022
- 682
Sometimes I forget not everyone on here struggles with a mental illness. I have a few different disorders, but it's always interesting to different perspectives on the world from people on here who don't have it.
It's crazy that so many of us come from different backgrounds, and fight different battles but we were brought to the same place. It makes me wonder that if I didn't have depression, would I have still gotten to this point somehow.
It's crazy that so many of us come from different backgrounds, and fight different battles but we were brought to the same place. It makes me wonder that if I didn't have depression, would I have still gotten to this point somehow.
Usually when someone is depressed. It means they are sad about something. Me personally rather than sad I'm angry . I'm angry that I'm in this world. I hate it . Everything.
It's a bleak realization to have grown up and see that this is what life is all about. Doing trivial meaningless shit to appease another person, thing, or event in order to get by in life or be ostracized/isolated by society. We spend billions on trying to condition humans to become an idealized version of someone else and for what reasons? "Muh bibLE T0ld me to"
I can exit at any time if I want to and knowing that the actions we do in this universe does not mean a single iota to anything else in life. Might as well have fun with it and then kick the bucket.
I can exit at any time if I want to and knowing that the actions we do in this universe does not mean a single iota to anything else in life. Might as well have fun with it and then kick the bucket.
Humans just can't bring themselves to realize that there is nothing special about them. There is nothing special at all. They use the tree to make paper and create this "value " they call money . So they can give their life meanings . Which is so ridiculously stupid. They fight for human rights. Which is so hilarious humans fighting for human rights . They kill each other they rule over each other they make each other their slaves. Im tired of this nightmare call existence.
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Archangel
- Apr 15, 2022
- 8,937
Life is but a never-ending bad dream, with only one way to wake up from it, that I can ascertain, at least.
