Last night was really bad, extreme intercostal pain while i was in bed, and the only pain meds that i have left is Targin Act, 40mg. I dont want to take it ontop of an overdose amitriptyline and ativan.
Seeing psychiatrist today at 2pm, we need to discuss lowering the amitriptyline dosage, the only way this could be done is by ketamine therapy, because i have been taking amitriptyline for 15 years.
Then , he also must prescribe tramadol.
We will again have to discuss my future, which is looking really bad. As some of you may know, I don't want to give up, so i have to find ways to live with this. i still want to do business, and travel, like i did before (with the same disabilities). It is just the older you get, the harder it becomes to live with disability.
At the moment i think that all the pressure on my body will lead to an early death, my heart is under a lot of pressure, so it is matter of figuring out how to cope, until my body gives in. It is just life.
Have to prepare my clothes now, go buy some white monsters, because i cant keep my eyes open..
Seeing psychiatrist today at 2pm, we need to discuss lowering the amitriptyline dosage, the only way this could be done is by ketamine therapy, because i have been taking amitriptyline for 15 years.
Then , he also must prescribe tramadol.
We will again have to discuss my future, which is looking really bad. As some of you may know, I don't want to give up, so i have to find ways to live with this. i still want to do business, and travel, like i did before (with the same disabilities). It is just the older you get, the harder it becomes to live with disability.
At the moment i think that all the pressure on my body will lead to an early death, my heart is under a lot of pressure, so it is matter of figuring out how to cope, until my body gives in. It is just life.
Have to prepare my clothes now, go buy some white monsters, because i cant keep my eyes open..
