Help Questions regarding methods

[starstruckstarlight]

Hey everyone. I have some questions and was looking for advice. I plan on exiting this Earth in either March or April. I think I finally feel ready this time. The only issue is solidifying my plan. I do have SN, BUT it was opened for a previous reckless attempt (foolish of me, I know.). It currently is in a sealed container sitting up right in a bookbag in my closet. I haven't opened it since, I'm worried it wouldn't be potent enough anymore. It'll be like...roughly over a year by the time I decide to use it. I will do a blood test when it gets closer to when I decide to leave, but I'm thinking of backup plans currently.

A plan I have in mind is bleach and amonina. I am aware this is a painful way to go. As stupid as this may sound I think I am willing to endure hours of physical pain to end the emotional pain I'm always in and have been in for years. What I am curious about is the probability of surviving this attempt. As long as I don't call for help, will this for sure eventually kill me? Or is there a chance I could just end up with brain damage? I want to make sure I am gone. I don't want to still be here and be in a state that further burdens others and also a state that wouldn't let me attempt again.

I've also considering jumping off a 55 foot bridge (17 m) near me, but it's into water. I don't know how deep this water is or if it would even kill me.

I am looking for any and all advice please. Thank you.

 

[Dinozauria]

I don't know about the other things (I'd argue that you should get new SN rather then the bleach and amonina but, then again, I don't know) but 55ft is NOT high enough. If you want to jump it should be at least 150-200ft if ur landing on land and 200-250ft on water (I forgot the exact measurements but lostallhope.com has it on there)

 

[starstruckstarlight]

I don't know about the other things (I'd argue that you should get new SN rather then the bleach and amonina but, then again, I don't know) but 55ft is NOT high enough. If you want to jump it should be at least 150-200ft if ur landing on land and 200-250ft on water (I forgot the exact measurements but lostallhope.com has it on there)

Thank you. New sn would just be hard with how scarce it is you know? Last time I ordered it I had a welfare check...its why in case the sn wasn't good I was looking into other stuff, as much as I wanna go with sn. Its only been a year or a bit over so I hope it's okay?

 

[mothlover402]

Don't do bleach, I tried it before it doesn't work. Everything just tastes awful, your throat feels like it swallowed glass, you'll vomit, and it's hard to breathe. It literally burns your insides but rarely kills you.

 

[starstruckstarlight]

Don't do bleach, I tried it before it doesn't work. Everything just tastes awful, your throat feels like it swallowed glass, you'll vomit, and it's hard to breathe. It literally burns your insides but rarely kills you.

I see, thank you. I've read some sources say that it does cause death, but that it's rare. I definitely would be worried about surviving something like that and the long term effects of it...I'm just worried that my SN won't be good anymore and I need a backup plan. I could test it now, but I don't want to expose it to even more air than what it already has been during my previous attempt.

I'm rambling at this point, apologies. Thank you again though for your input! I'll also look into different methods.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Your SN may very well be oxidized and no good anymore, but neither bleach, or ammonia, is going to kill you. You're going to end up all screwed-up inside with more severe problems compounding on your already existing ones.

 

[starstruckstarlight]

Your SN may very well be oxidized and no good anymore, but neither bleach, or ammonia, is going to kill you. You're going to end up all screwed-up inside with more severe problems compounding on your already existing ones.

Thank you. I'm really hoping it's still good. I've researched that it has a shelf life of 3 years I think? But with it being opened before and out for a bit during my attempt it may not be. I have it in a closed container and some of it is still clumped together. Whenever I take it out and look at it, it seems like it still has a like offish white color on it? I don't know I have anxiety over it, I wish I just went through with it when I opened it the first time. I ordered through DMC. I know his contact info but I don't know if he's still doing orders plus I got a welfare check before from ordering. This is all so anxiety inducing. Everytime I think about dying I feel peace but I feel so much anxiety and sorrow over the fact I don't have a solid plan and everything is still so up in the air.