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the_path_of_sorrows

the_path_of_sorrows

Different routes, same destination
Nov 26, 2023
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Yesterday had a concert and it went good according to others cos "this made me so emotional I don't know why".

You don't know why? The pieces of my piano performance were related to death, to being suicidal in a "I've made my mind" way. I understand it completely so I express my feelings to others on an instrument like it's my second nature.

You don't understand why you were crying during the performance? My soul is weeping. Your soul can feel it, can feel how I'm running out of time. The clock is no longer filled with sand, your soul understands that this might be my very last performance. It can be felt clearly, even if others can't put it into words.

It will all be over soon. These performances on the stage take a part as a prelude to the inevitable suicide, which will be my final performance.
 
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