Venting PTSD shakes/tremours

[EvilStepSister]

I'm having tremours again. Every day I get them. Dammit. I was dealing with other trauma as it was. I didn't need another trigger.

The tremours are what make it unbearable. I get so scared I can't stand it. I hate them. And I hate the memories and I hate feeling helpless and I hate feeling abandonned. I hate that I let myself let anyone close enough again so that they could (inevitably) drop me. This one hurt more than all others combined. I've been reeling for the past two months. There's no end in sight.

I have meds (Propranolol of all things!) but it doesn't help. I've tried almost everything. Nothing makes it stop!

There's only one way to prevent this from ever happening again and only one way to stop this nightmare.

/rant

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are going through this. I can imagine it must be horrible having to go through that. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are suffering so much. I wish you the best in whatever happens.