Probably would have done it already

[Nymph]

I have SN and my antiemetics are on the way, it's been taking quite long tho and even before I ordered the antiemetics I already had strong urges to ctb. The urges come and go but I know that there will be a time when they will not go away.. I've wanted to ctb multiple times already but I'm too dependent on my method and I can't bring myself to ctb until I have antiemetics. I convinced myself that SN alone is gonna be painful and other than that I don't even know what method I'd use cause I don't have much available besides full suspension which I don't want to do.

 

[BPD Barbie]

Aw love, I know how much it hurts to go back and forth between living and dying, the urges become more and more powerful each time and it feels almost inevitable that you will do it. It's hard, it's tiring. I wish I had some solid advice for you but all I can is say I'm here and I'm sending you all my love and strength