Practiced partial hanging

[HiImPaul]

Just got the rope today. Followed the directions to make a slip knot, put one end around my neck and tied the other day end to my bed frame. Set out my suicide note in case I messed up and accidentally ctb. I slowly let my neck start to bare the weight of my body. At first I kind of got that "exploding head" feeling but it wasn't too bad. Kinda like what it feels like to hang upside down and the blood rushes to your head. After adding a little more weight I began to get the warm fuzzy cerebral hypoxia feeling and some dark spots appeared in my vision. That's where I stopped for now. Not as scared about the pain anymore which is nice because there wasn't much. I'll hide the rope for now until I can't handle this life anymore.

 

[Eternal Oblivion]

May I ask you what makes you decide for hanging as a method? I ask because SN seens very popular around here.

 

[HiImPaul]

May I ask you what makes you decide for hanging as a method? I ask because SN seens very popular around here.

Obtaining it is an issue because I live with my mom. She usually opens any package that comes to the door so that would be hard to explain. I also despise nausea and vomiting. My anxiety makes me nauseous almost all the time so I'd rather not spend the last 10mins of my life feeling like that.

 

[Elri]

This method is too scary the whole tingling feeling is off

 

[FuneralCry]

Hanging does sound really unpleasant to me. It must be a relief to be not scared of the pain as it means you can exit at a time of your choosing. I wish you the best.

 

[HiImPaul]

This method is too scary the whole tingling feeling is off

I'm actually kind of use to the feeling. I get a lot of orthostatic hypotension. Basically when I stand up most of the time everything will get fuzzy and I can't see well for a few seconds. It just felt like that pretty much. SI will definitely be the biggest hurdle to pulling it off, but if things get bad enough I think it'll be a good way for me to go based on this practice run.

 

[Elri]

I'm actually kind of use to the feeling. I get a lot of orthostatic hypotension. Basically when I stand up most of the time everything will get fuzzy and I can't see well for a few seconds. It just felt like that pretty much. SI will definitely be the biggest hurdle to pulling it off, but if things get bad enough I think it'll be a good way for me to go based on this practice run.

I understand, why not SN tho?

 

[HiImPaul]

I understand, why not SN tho?

My mom checks any package comes to the house so it would be hard to obtain. I also hate the feeling of nausea and I'd rather not spend the last 10mins of my life feeling like that.