Post When You Make It Through the Day

[charlotte greentea]

I like the rate how suicidal you are thread because it helps me keep a measure of how I'm feeling and how others are feeling. In the same vein I thought it'd be nice just to have a thread to acknowledge making it through another day even when it's nearly impossible.
I almost killed myself today, but I made it through the day.

 

[Of The Universe]

Care to elucidate???

 

[charlotte greentea]

Care to elucidate???

Nothing super exciting honestly, just had a really rough day and thought about leaving work to go kill myself and nearly walked into traffic on my lunch break. But even with all that I still got through the day. I think that's worth something

 

[Maaizr]

had this dream over the weekend, made me want to kill myself so bad but im still here i suppose ..cant go yet im just not ready to die but everything inside is screaming at me to do so

 

[FuneralCry]

I guess that I have made it through this day, it is late now. Everyday is the same, each day is so miserable and depressing, time passes very slowly. I do not want any more days, I only want non existence.

 

[watchingthewheels]

I made it through the day. New job, after 2 weeks of seeming like it was ok, turned to crud last week with a management transition. New supervisor is a micromanager who is !@#% everyone off with unreasonable demands re quotas on existing tasks (while adding additional tasks, which will take time away from the main tasks!). She is off the next 3 days, at least, so that will make the rest of the week manageable. We'll see how it goes after that.

One day at a time, I keep telling myself. (This is only a temp-to-hire job, so, literally, one day at at time!) But I know it will be like this most anywhere I go, so I'm just doing the best I can where I'm at (and my best is nothing to sneeze at), so they can either take it or leave it.

 

[Al Cappella]

I made it through the day, but really don't know how. I'm mostly just going through the motions, not doing much of anything. It's a prison with no bars. But, I don't mean to sound whiney…

 

[Huntfish34]

Ehh... I made it through the day so far. Work was Ok but still a pain in the Fckn ass with my dickhead manager / supervisors.

After work I looked at one of my rifles... Just staring at it in a drunken haze,. But still couldn't muster the strength to do anything about it . Maybe tomorrow,. Who knows.. -

 

[Lullaby]

I had a really good day yesterday, for the time in a long while. No suicidal thoughts or anything, I just felt good.

Today started okay then it tanked halfway through. My mood is in the dumps again, but I guess I made it.

Won't even think about tomorrow, just going to listen to music and read for the rest of the night to escape.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

I made it through the day. New job, after 2 weeks of seeming like it was ok, turned to crud last week with a management transition. New supervisor is a micromanager who is !@#% everyone off with unreasonable demands re quotas on existing tasks (while adding additional tasks, which will take time away from the main tasks!). She is off the next 3 days, at least, so that will make the rest of the week manageable. We'll see how it goes after that.

One day at a time, I keep telling myself. (This is only a temp-to-hire job, so, literally, one day at at time!) But I know it will be like this most anywhere I go, so I'm just doing the best I can where I'm at (and my best is nothing to sneeze at), so they can either take it or leave it.

Congratulations for the new job :) I'm sorry that your supervisor seems to be a jerk. Nothing is perfect. I hope the rest is positive. I wish you a rest of a good week.

 

[Insomniac]

cool idea but I think this fits more into the recovery section

 

[charlotte greentea]

Made it through the day again. It was another uniquely stressful day but at the end I didn't kill myself. Maybe I'll make it through the day tomorrow too.

 

[headspin]

I made it through the day, but really don't know how. I'm mostly just going through the motions, not doing much of anything. It's a prison with no bars. But, I don't mean to sound whiney…

I know this well.
Made it through this day . About to try and sleep ( the only relief ). All day I thought about my CBT plan. Day after day it's the same.
I'm scared and can't wait at the same time. I feel horrible about the effects it will have on others if it successful, but they don't understand the depth of this.
But, yes, made it through another day somehow.
Made it through this day . About to try and sleep ( the only relief ). All day I thought about my CBT plan. Day after day it's the same.
I'm scared and can't wait at the same time. I feel horrible about the effects it will have on others if it successful, but they don't understand the depth of this.
But, yes, made it through another day somehow.
I was thinking earlier today about how it's a prison with no bars…
Made it through this day . About to try and sleep ( the only relief ). All day I thought about my CBT plan. Day after day it's the same.
I'm scared and can't wait at the same time. I feel horrible about the effects it will have on others if it successful, but they don't understand the depth of this.
But, yes, made it through another day somehow.

I know this well.
Made it through this day . About to try and sleep ( the only relief ). All day I thought about my CBT plan. Day after day it's the same.
I'm scared and can't wait at the same time. I feel horrible about the effects it will have on others if it successful, but they don't understand the depth of this.
But, yes, made it through another day somehow.
Made it through this day . About to try and sleep ( the only relief ). All day I thought about my CBT plan. Day after day it's the same.
I'm scared and can't wait at the same time. I feel horrible about the effects it will have on others if it successful, but they don't understand the depth of this.
But, yes, made it through another day somehow.
I was thinking earlier today about how it's a prison with no bars…
Made it through this day . About to try and sleep ( the only relief ). All day I thought about my CBT plan. Day after day it's the same.
I'm scared and can't wait at the same time. I feel horrible about the effects it will have on others if it successful, but they don't understand the depth of this.
But, yes, made it through another day somehow.

I was thinking about earlier today about how this is a prison with no bars.

 

[watchingthewheels]

Congratulations for the new job :) I'm sorry that your supervisor seems to be a jerk. Nothing is perfect. I hope the rest is positive. I wish you a rest of a good week.

Thank you.

 

[charlotte greentea]

Made it through the day again, but nobody made it particularly easy

 

[Hurt]

I can't believe I survived this day. I felt very suicidal and I didnt care about anything anymore but now I am in my bed and I'm too tired to ctb so I guess I'm gonna sleep and hope I die while sleeping.
I hated this day

 

[Of The Universe]

Well it wasn't A bad day. I did my laundry,but that ain't all!
I got approved for a credit card! Now I can breathe easier.

 

[Al Cappella]

This is kinda nice, like a checking-in thread. I made it through. On the whole it wasn't too terrible…

 

[its-about-time]

Made it through. I've been out of town for about a week. My SN arrived right before I left town, I decided to leave it home and not bring it with me.. I'm going home tomorrow. Curious what I'll wind up doing. Every night this week I've been asking myself, "if I was home right now, would I kill myself tonight?" Certainly want to many nights, but no telling for real until I am home tomorrow and have it again.

 

[charlotte greentea]

I made it through the day again. I think with the weekend coming up I'll make it through a few more days for sure

 

[Lullaby]

Today went pretty horribly, and I'm still here, but I don't even want to wake up tomorrow and deal with any of this again.

Making it through the day would usually be a small victory for me, but it feels different now.

 

[charlotte greentea]

Made it through the day again

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Made it through the day. Just chilling at home with my cat, in silence and peace. Could be worse.

 

[Al Cappella]

Still kicking!

 

[its-about-time]

Made it to midnight! I just watched a video of a suicide by cop though and am now wishing I hadn't right before bed. It's long been a fantasy of mine but is suddenly clear I could never actually do it. I completely freeze under confrontation. (And yes, it's not nice to involve others in suicide, it's just a great fantasy that entertains me when I'm driving… "what if I get pulled over, could I use it as an opportunity?"). Another day ended with poor choices

 

[☆AwaitingEntropy☆]

Made it through today. The less I care about my life, the harder it is not to become impulsive. My reservations for ctb are fewer and fewer. But, I'm here. Hoping for a good night's sleep.