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SatinSoul

SatinSoul

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Feb 6, 2026
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It's been a 6-8 hours since i drank SN. Threw that nasty white foam up again quickly and passed out.

I am awake now and doing alright overall, however, when can i finally drink even a drop of water without instantly throwing it up again?

@Dante_ maybe you know more
 
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inconclusivesorbet

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Jan 28, 2026
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How much sn did you drink? Have you tried eating mints
 
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NoHorizon

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I know this probably isn't what you want to hear but after a failed SN attempt you really should get medical attention. I would recommend going to your local hospital/ER so they can check you over and give you whatever you need. If you're unable to keep fluids down they might put you on a drip to help you recover more quickly.
 
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Asya

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Mar 17, 2026
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I know this probably isn't what you want to hear but after a failed SN attempt you really should get medical attention. I would recommend going to your local hospital/ER so they can check you over and give you whatever you need. If you're unable to keep fluids down they might put you on a drip to help you recover more quickly.
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SatinSoul

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EMTs brought me to the hospital. IV is great. Thankies
 
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Dante_

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Very relieved to know you're in hospital and getting the medical attention needed to be okay Satin...any amount of sn ingested is just not best to left to chance that it may resolve on its on without treatment.
 
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vyvanceandvodka

hoping to recover .✦ ݁˖♡
Jan 7, 2026
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I'm glad you're okay :(( I'm sending you so much love. :heart: Here if you need someone to talk to!
 
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iveseenfootage

it’s almost dry
Nov 30, 2025
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Glad to hear you're okay. Hope all is well for now and you find peace.
 
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SatinSoul

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Feb 6, 2026
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Quick Update: I'm doing good overall. The ICU medical team did a great job, and i can walk again, somewhat, and my brain works alright enough as well. I still can't really eat or drink without throwing it up again despite IV anti nausea medication, so my arm has done most of the drinking since tuesday :D

I'm sure that will be fine again as well and i am aiming for going home or to a hotel today.
⸜(。˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡

(Extra Special Thankies to SN_Dante)
 
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Mr.Tristesse

Wish I had been normal
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How did you explain your SN ingestion?
 
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SatinSoul

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How did you explain your SN ingestion?
Was honest. I am well known there. Bullshit excuses won't work anymore. Got questioned by the police again in the hospital, once the basic procedure of keeping me alive was over. I just denied answering most of their questions. 24h hold, which is soon over so imma bounce if I can. At least I had a great nap.
 
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Wish I had been normal
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Was honest. I am well known there. Bullshit excuses won't work anymore. Got questioned by the police again in the hospital, once the basic procedure of keeping me alive was over. I just denied answering most of their questions. 24h hold, which is soon over so imma bounce if I can. At least I had a great nap.
I see. I am glad it didn't lead to more coercive measures.
 
Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
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If you dont mind me asking how much SN did you ingest, and did they administer methylene blue in the hospital?
 
SatinSoul

SatinSoul

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If you dont mind me asking how much SN did you ingest, and did they administer methylene blue in the hospital?
I'd prefer not to share the amount. And no, i denied methylene blue this time.
 
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SatinSoul

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After reading my discharge report, I realized that I was in worse shape than I originally thought, and they apparently did administer methylene blue without my knowledge. Figured I might as well excerpt and translate a few things in case anyone finds the report useful:

"Patient presented to the emergency department in distress following an ingestion event resulting in mixed sodium nitrite, benzodiazepine, and alcohol poisoning. The patient reported losing consciousness shortly after ingestion and later waking up in her own vomit. Upon regaining consciousness, she complained of severe and diffuse abdominal pain, rated at an 8/10 in severity. Additional endorsed symptoms included chest pain, extremity pain, cluster headaches, perioral shortness of breath, confusion, auditory hallucinations, and speech impairment."

"On initial assessment, the patient appeared ill, ashen, discolored, and in acute distress. There were visible signs of severe dehydration, alongside noted perioral cyanosis and perioral syncope. Initial vital signs showed the patient was afebrile, tachycardic to 104 bpm, and tachypneic with a respiratory rate of 24. Blood pressure was elevated with a systolic reading in the 120s. Oxygen saturation was critically diminished at 81% while receiving 10 L/min of oxygen via Bag-Valve-Mask (BVM). Ocular examination revealed unremarkable visual acuity; however, pupils were anisocoric with 2+ pupillary light reflexes."

"Immediate stabilization and medical management were initiated for acute toxicity and hypoxia. The patient received 1 mg/kg of methylene blue to counteract the suspected methemoglobinemia from the sodium nitrite ingestion, along with 40 units of vasopressin for hemodynamic support. Dehydration and systemic stabilization were treated with intravenous resuscitation fluids, followed by a continuous maintenance infusion of normal saline."

"Following medical clearance, the patient was transferred to the inpatient psychiatric unit for further evaluation and management."

@Dante_ :3
 
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