Possibly gross…

[Lily (Osako)]

I've been trying to decide where to ctb. I was thinking maybe in my bathtub.
I'd prefer to do it in my bed, but I'm afraid of the gross stuff and don't want anyone to have to deal with that.
So the bathtub seems a little less difficult for anyone else.
Is there anything I can do to help make it not so yucky?

 

[veryhappyhuman]

What is your method? Mine is SN and I plan to do it in the bathtub too for the same reason, easier cleanup. I plan to have a bucket lined with garbage bag within hand's reach to avoid puking before I can get up to reach the WC. Plus have super light meals during the day (maybe like just 1-2 biscuits every hour prior to starting fast) so there's not much in the stomach to expel after the event.

I did look at multiple post-ctb photos of SN deaths and they didnt look messy to me. So maybe this is all much ado about nothing.

If you're doing it on your own bed, maybe covering it with a cheap tarp is an option? Or a mattress liner.

 

[Lily (Osako)]

I'm leaning towards heroin od with alcohol and benzos.
A bucket is a must.
I feel like the tarp on my bed would just make it not feel like my bed.
I've already started prepping to make sure I'm as empty as possible.
I won't be eating from here on out and will keep my liquids to a minimum.
I don't know when I'll be doing this but I want to be ready when I decide.