so, the last time i had sex with someone that was also into me was about 3 years ago (ex-girlfriend), since then i have only jerked off to porn....
so, i thought "before i go, i want to have sex a couple last times", which is way i solicited 6 prostitutes in the last 3 weeks...
my conclusion: as hollow and depressed i feel after jerking off to porn, i do feel even worse after having "real sex" with someone that i have paid for this (didnt think that was even possible)...
porn doesnt drain my bank account, porn doesnt make me feel subhuman. paying prostitutes for sex makes you feel horrible because you realize that you have to pay someone to receive some form of intimacy (which is one of human's basic desires)....
plus, the majority of the prostitutes did not do a good job, it was plain obvious that they were looking to be done with me as soon as possible... one bitch even urged me to cum after 15 min, even though i had booked 30... the blowjobs i got were horrible, i jerk off better with my own hand, all in all a waste of money. and even the two good experiences i had are not worth the money in hindsight...
i now know that i did not want to have sex with anyone a couple of times before i go, but that i wanted to have sex with someone thats in to me, eg hookup after a party etc., where there's real chemistry. sadly this has not materialised in the last 3 years and will not materialise anymore. sex with a prostitute will never compare to the emotional bonding that happens when two adults have passionate sex....
anyway, that was my thoughts on prostitutes, so if you're a virgin and thinking of losing your viriginity to such a woman, dont do it, its not worth the money at all. rather, save yourself up for that one special girl.
so, i thought "before i go, i want to have sex a couple last times", which is way i solicited 6 prostitutes in the last 3 weeks...
my conclusion: as hollow and depressed i feel after jerking off to porn, i do feel even worse after having "real sex" with someone that i have paid for this (didnt think that was even possible)...
porn doesnt drain my bank account, porn doesnt make me feel subhuman. paying prostitutes for sex makes you feel horrible because you realize that you have to pay someone to receive some form of intimacy (which is one of human's basic desires)....
plus, the majority of the prostitutes did not do a good job, it was plain obvious that they were looking to be done with me as soon as possible... one bitch even urged me to cum after 15 min, even though i had booked 30... the blowjobs i got were horrible, i jerk off better with my own hand, all in all a waste of money. and even the two good experiences i had are not worth the money in hindsight...
i now know that i did not want to have sex with anyone a couple of times before i go, but that i wanted to have sex with someone thats in to me, eg hookup after a party etc., where there's real chemistry. sadly this has not materialised in the last 3 years and will not materialise anymore. sex with a prostitute will never compare to the emotional bonding that happens when two adults have passionate sex....
anyway, that was my thoughts on prostitutes, so if you're a virgin and thinking of losing your viriginity to such a woman, dont do it, its not worth the money at all. rather, save yourself up for that one special girl.
