Hey nah I sadly can't. Don't have access to that. Only other thing I could potentially do is jumping but the bridge is quite far away, I got no energy to get there and also I'd be scared someone sees me go on there (it's a train Bridge) and maybe tries stopping me or calls the cops
Hey thank you. I've cut the rope now.
Cutting the rope is not necessary mein Bruder.
I will choose my words carefully. I don't mean to imply I know something you don't and I also don't want to violate the rules of this site.
However a water bowline knot anchored to a tree at any point of the rope is sufficient. An anchor point that can support 3X your body weight will work ok for someone who intends to CTB.
That's what I have. It's made of metal in the middle of nowhere (cell reception tower). Nobody will find me for days/weeks unless I send a delayed email to police so somebody trained can come dispose of my corpse. In my personal opinion SI can be reduced with drugs.
This is not advice or a suggestion it's simply my opinion on the subject.