I've finally given up. No, not given up - just given in. I'm tired of this endless cycle.
I understand overdose is often not recommended, so feel free to try and talk me out, however I do think this would be enough.
option 1:
-Grapefruit juice as a little snack (essentially makes the opioids hit harder)
-100mg hydrocodone
-1g(+) tramadol
-80mg tizanidine
-anti nausea meds (to curb the vomiting, obvs <3 )
-down it with some alcohol
-and smoke a lil
(Pills crushed for max absorption)
this is my easiest and fastest option, as I have everything on hand right now, except for that grapefruit juice, but that's easily solved tbh
option 2:
I went through the little riddle and can get myself some SN delivered.
option 3:
-one of the above plus
-a lovely short dive from an 8 story building (already picked out)
-and/or the use of scalpels to the wrists (I have a SH history, already have unused scalpels)
I feel like an opioid overdose (x2) combined with the muscle relaxant overdose + alcohol and weed should be more than enough, especially since I'm a whole 87lbs and have no tolerance for anything but weed, but let me know what you think.
Also: where would a good place be to do this? I do not want my family finding my body. I would probably schedule a message to send a couple hours after with my location and to send the police, since it's not like I can call the police once I CTB lol.
I understand overdose is often not recommended, so feel free to try and talk me out, however I do think this would be enough.
option 1:
-Grapefruit juice as a little snack (essentially makes the opioids hit harder)
-100mg hydrocodone
-1g(+) tramadol
-80mg tizanidine
-anti nausea meds (to curb the vomiting, obvs <3 )
-down it with some alcohol
-and smoke a lil
(Pills crushed for max absorption)
this is my easiest and fastest option, as I have everything on hand right now, except for that grapefruit juice, but that's easily solved tbh
option 2:
I went through the little riddle and can get myself some SN delivered.
option 3:
-one of the above plus
-a lovely short dive from an 8 story building (already picked out)
-and/or the use of scalpels to the wrists (I have a SH history, already have unused scalpels)
I feel like an opioid overdose (x2) combined with the muscle relaxant overdose + alcohol and weed should be more than enough, especially since I'm a whole 87lbs and have no tolerance for anything but weed, but let me know what you think.
Also: where would a good place be to do this? I do not want my family finding my body. I would probably schedule a message to send a couple hours after with my location and to send the police, since it's not like I can call the police once I CTB lol.
