Planning to CTB because of academic reasons

[qpsns]

I am a high school dropout, and I have 2 months left for SAT and AP.
Due to my wrong method of studying and misjudgment, I have to study from the beginning again.
But I don't know if this can be completed within 2 months.
It would mean learning math and science from scratch.
When I was in school I always failed my studies, and my parents were always trying hard to forgive me.
But I don't know if I can be forgiven this time.
I can take them next year, but because I have GED and TOEFL tests in August, I don't know if I can even study within a year.
I am in a fucked up situation right now.
I don't want to deal with this mess, I just wanna leave this world.
I always failed and I never succeeded.

 

[Sea Turtle]

Hey, I can relate to this a bit. School has honestly been a shitshow for me for years now. I progressively did worse and worse, but somehow now I'm in college. I didn't think I would get accepted to anything, to be honest. It's not the path I imagined I'd take academically, but I suppose it's the path I'm on now.
Even if this doesn't go well for you, I'm sure there will be other chances. Regardless though, I hope you find what you're looking for in life be it other chances or not

 

[whatevs]

Seems like a small obstacle seen with the perspective of an adult, not deserving this kind of drastic "fix". Perhaps a year or so of having to readjust. Not the kind of hurdle that makes self-removal desirable.

 

[summers]

@qpsns since you dropped out of his, why not focus on skills training. Hate to be harsh, but if you couldn't make it in the structured hs environment, and can't study independently for the ap, college may not be for you.

Most plumbers and electricians make more than college graduates anyway. Don't kill yourself over this, use it as a stepping stone toward what you're truly interested and capable of doing.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really stressful what you are going through. I'm sorry you are suffering. I wish you the best in whatever happens.