hey! i'm new here and i've never posted anything so i'm a bit nervous but uh i've tried to kill myself 3 times (2015, 2016 and 2018) by taking a lot of pills so of course it didn't work. last year i almost tried to do it with a knife through my neck but i had done some research about it and read that it was very common for people to survive and have a terrible quality of life afterwards so i ended up calling my therapist because i had no backup plan
i just found out about the SN method thanks to this forum and i'm very, very grateful. i felt so desperate because i was diagnosed 7 years ago, when i was only 13 years old, and things have been exactly the same (only worse because i have no hope anymore) so i know for a fact they will not get better and that there is no point of holding on. the only reason i never tried anything after 2018 is because i didn't think there was any accessible methods that would work. my mom has been depressed her whole life too and she's the only person that was my Anchor, but i just can't keep doing this anymore :/ not even for her.
i've been thinking about doing this for a while but i don't have the ingredients yet because i was having trouble figuring out a date, but i plan on buying everything tomorrow so i can do it on sunday, following the 48 hour regimen
i have a few questions, though:
1) what's in your to do list before leaving? all i can think about is writing a letter but i don't want to forget anything.
2) does metoclopramide chlorhydrate has the same effect as metoclopramide? i'm sorry if that's a dumb question
3) rohypnol/flutrinazepam is legal in my country (i live in. brazil) and is actually the prescription drug i take when i have insomnia. after i drink the SN, should i take more than what i usually take for sleeping or is that enough?
4) can i have some chocolate after drinking the SN for the aftertaste?
5) can i have some alcohol a day before i drink the SN? it's just that i plan on seeing my friends one more time this weekend and i don't want them to be suspicious.
6) this is what i take everyday for depression and anxiety: depakote, desvenlafaxine 150mg, quetiapine 25mg (before going to bed) and occasionally 1mg or 2mg of roophies. should i stop taking them or is it okay to keep taking them? i don't want anyone to be suspicious.
i just found out about the SN method thanks to this forum and i'm very, very grateful. i felt so desperate because i was diagnosed 7 years ago, when i was only 13 years old, and things have been exactly the same (only worse because i have no hope anymore) so i know for a fact they will not get better and that there is no point of holding on. the only reason i never tried anything after 2018 is because i didn't think there was any accessible methods that would work. my mom has been depressed her whole life too and she's the only person that was my Anchor, but i just can't keep doing this anymore :/ not even for her.
i've been thinking about doing this for a while but i don't have the ingredients yet because i was having trouble figuring out a date, but i plan on buying everything tomorrow so i can do it on sunday, following the 48 hour regimen
i have a few questions, though:
1) what's in your to do list before leaving? all i can think about is writing a letter but i don't want to forget anything.
2) does metoclopramide chlorhydrate has the same effect as metoclopramide? i'm sorry if that's a dumb question
3) rohypnol/flutrinazepam is legal in my country (i live in. brazil) and is actually the prescription drug i take when i have insomnia. after i drink the SN, should i take more than what i usually take for sleeping or is that enough?
4) can i have some chocolate after drinking the SN for the aftertaste?
5) can i have some alcohol a day before i drink the SN? it's just that i plan on seeing my friends one more time this weekend and i don't want them to be suspicious.
6) this is what i take everyday for depression and anxiety: depakote, desvenlafaxine 150mg, quetiapine 25mg (before going to bed) and occasionally 1mg or 2mg of roophies. should i stop taking them or is it okay to keep taking them? i don't want anyone to be suspicious.
