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What do they think you have, and do you agree with it? I haven't been diagnosed with any either, but I think I might have one as well (schizoid and/or avoidant pd's). Honestly, who knows though…
Sorry to hear that. I heard borderline was rough
Sorry to hear that it's made you miss out on life. I've been reading up on avpd and it seems like I most probably have it. Granted I have social anxiety and other conditions too…btw, do you have a desire to interact with others and talk to people tho? I don't (well not anymore at least, and not in person), so I'm not sure if I actually have this…
I think I'm schizoid as well…how does it manifest for you? For me I'm aroace, don't want a boyfriend (never even had one, lmao), don't want to talk to or interact with other people, and honestly just want to be left alone. I don't have any friends (well not anymore), and I don't need them. I actually enjoy being by myself and being alone.
Sort of similair. For me it is: isolation, recluse, little interest in friendships, little to no motivation to meet people, lack of apathy, live in head, blunted emotions and anhedonia.
Were you always like this? I think I only became schizoid since last year. Before that, I had friends and interacted with them, but I slowly made the friendships fade away by just not replying anymore. I self-isolated from others. But honestly I don't think I ever really needed friends anyways, I just had them because it was nice to have them.
No, although there were signs even when I was little. Much of this could have been prevented if I had caring/supporting parents instead of drugs/alcohol abusing ones who did not care for their children. I guess my mind slowly detached to safe itself from the pain (mental and psychical). There was a time I had friends but this all faded away when I entered my teens.
i have social anxiety too, i dont really have much of a desire to interact, though i still get lonely and wish i was able to socailise normally, but i have mostly lost interest. i think thats more on the schizoid side of things, i dont have schizoid pd but some people with avpd show a lot of schizoid traits. avpd seems to manifest as a lot of anxiety, some general but mostly social for me, and just generally overthinking things, low confidence, just an irrational fear of people and interaction, which leads to avoidance and isolation
There is a theory that unkept AVPD that is not threated can eventually morph into schizoid over time. The mind will protect itself this way.
Diagnosed with schizoid personality disorder, and I don't necessarily think it is a factor in me wanting to CTB. Most likely the lack of desire to be around other people/make relationships causing me to isolate myself a lot probably doesn't help my mental state, but I don't want to CTB cuz of it. I was always that way and genuinely enjoy being alone so it doesn't really bother me. I do get jealous in a way since I feel like I'm missing out on the normal things people my age do but at the same time, I know I'd absolutely hate those kinds of things.
Were you always like this? I think I only became schizoid since last year. Before that, I had friends and interacted with them, but I slowly made the friendships fade away by just not replying anymore. I self-isolated from ithrs
I remember in high school I had an IQ test for ADHD/ASD eval and I said I "preferred to be alone". The examiner wrote that I "preferred to be on my own and tended towards seclusion". I've never been a social butterfly, and I've always had issues connecting or interacting with others (due to ASD). I've always only had a few close friends and I think I was the loner stereotype.
This is probably what's happening to me…
How did you know that you were borderline?
Yeah I love being alone, but the problem is that my parents expect me to get a job and enter the workforce eventually. I wish I could just stay home, isolated from society, but eventually I'm gonna have to participate in society and I don't want to…
I just cut if contact with my family and sad fuck you to society, if your ##Removing my diagnosis## I would kinda recommend it
Yeah I'm thinking abt being a programmer or something
For me my autism/Asperger's manifests more as social difficulties rather than stimming or love of structure/order. I have trouble interacting with others, social cues and body language are literally foreign to me. The little social skills I had disintegrated due to lockdown, so I basically have zero social skills now lmao. I also have adhd as well so maybe that changed how it presents…
