This is why I don't talk to people anymore. They mean well, but they're coming from a healthier mindset which I don't know how to aquire. What works for them never worked for me. Simple as that. I think it has to do with how our brains were wired when we were growing up, by our environment and our care takers. We are either doomed or blessed in that sense, or something in between. I don't think a lack of effort is what brought us here. I used to, but I've tried every possible thing to get better and I am spent. Some of us are probably destined to embark on different routes, not many can join us there. It brings me a peace in a way. I left no stone unturned. Once I decide to board a bus, it will simply be because I knew no other was coming to get me. And I was too tired and crippled to walk.