Peace

[the_final_countdown]

I'm trying my best not to be bitter about what happened to me.

I understand life can be unfair. To everyone. There's a sort of fairness there. Nobody goes unscathed.

I'm searching for a new method. Trying to find my fathers gun. I believe he still has it. And I think I may know where it is.

I'm trying not to have any regrets or focusing on what could've been.

There's no free will so life was always destined to be this way.

I want to have a graceful death.

Emotionally. I know the panic and the fear and the sorrow. Its instinct you cannot repress. I understand.

I want a singular moment where I can die with some dignity. As a man if that makes any sense, facing their fate with courage. A fate I chose.

Almost like a holy ritual.

A gun might give me that. I don't imagine I could maintain composure with poison. I would give in to the mayhem.

There's a quiet place where I live. A trail up a small mountain. It's beautiful and lonely.

I would love to die there.

 

[WornOutLife]

I would like to die with some dignity too, my friend.

We don't deserve to suffer like this.

Whatever happens, wish you lots of love and peace!!

Hugs,

Matt

 

[the_final_countdown]

I would like to die with some dignity too, my friend.

We don't deserve to suffer like this.

Whatever happens, wish you lots of love and peace!!

Hugs,

Matt

Peace be with you Matt.

 

[FuneralCry]

Life really can be cruel to us, and so much can go wrong that is simply out of our control. I would do anything for an peaceful way out, in a way it would make up for the pain that this life has given me. I wish you well.