Pathetic

[ImpairedLowlife]

At this point I am not even trying to solve things that bother me. I have no hope or any plans for future. In fact I am even sure there's no future for me.
When things are getting worse I just cut myself until I feel better.
Once everything fucks up even more I am sure I will ctb. I bought a rope for it about month ago.
Only self harming and knowing I have a rope helps me fight my anxiety now.
Only 4 years ago I was pretty much normal guy, but then everything fucked up.
I am a fucking failure.

 

[almost_dead]

-hugs-

 

[Valon]

Same here, bro. There are some things in life you just can't recover from.

 

[Sinkinshyp]

hugs to you.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I don't see a future for myself either. Sometimes I wish it didn't have to be that way, but there's no sense in holding onto false hope. It seems that even if I change things, something else goes horribly wrong and then I'm back at square one. A SN cocktail is probably going to BE the future for me.