Venting pathetic and dumb

[degreesoflewdity]

well okay i see a sort of theme in all my posts. i call myself pathetic which is true but okay

i'm not good at anything. like, im serious. i'm not good at ANYTHING. and guess what? i dont want to do anything. i'm not good at drawing, or playing an instrument, or cooking or baking or anything!! i'd feel better about myself if i was atleast good at something but im not. honestly im just ranting. ignore this, theres so amny thoughrs in my head and i cant focus on any or organize them.

 

[meowpuppy]

this is how i used to feel for a long time, but i disabused myself of it eventually by realizing that i wanted to be good at something so that i could be loved, but i won't be loved anyway for things i can't control

 

[wisdom]

It doesnt Matter that you are bad doing It, what really matters is that you enjoy doing It. You will get better with practise

this is how i used to feel for a long time, but i disabused myself of it eventually by realizing that i wanted to be good at something so that i could be loved, but i won't be loved anyway for things i can't control

why do you think that you can't be loved?

 

[meowpuppy]

It doesnt Matter that you are bad doing It, what really matters is that you enjoy doing It. You will get better with practise

why do you think that you can't be loved?

i don't think it's a matter of not being lovable but that i won't be loved, because of how different i am to most people, and how much effort somebody would have to put in to get to my inner kernel of, uh, being a good person, i guess.

 

[wisdom]

i don't think it's a matter of not being lovable but that i won't be loved, because of how different i am to most people, and how much effort somebody would have to put in to get to my inner kernel of, uh, being a good person, i guess.

I'm sure that out there someone can love you don't give up on that

 

[meowpuppy]

I'm sure that out there someone can love you don't give up on that

yeah, well, it's a matter of whether or not i can find them, and i'm not going to waste effort on finding somebody who is that rare

 

[wisdom]

yeah, well, it's a matter of whether or not i can find them, and i'm not going to waste effort on finding somebody who is that rare

wish you the best luck

 

[degreesoflewdity]

this is how i used to feel for a long time, but i disabused myself of it eventually by realizing that i wanted to be good at something so that i could be loved, but i won't be loved anyway for things i can't control

honestly i might just grind on some hobby and try to get bettwr. theres so many people as depressed as me but theyre good at drawing or something and they get love and attention, i figured thats the easiest way for me to get it too

 

[meowpuppy]

honestly i might just grind on some hobby and try to get bettwr. theres so many people as depressed as me but theyre good at drawing or something and they get love and attention, i figured thats the easiest way for me to get it too

unfortunately, i think these people have love and support and are good at art, and those two things are correlated but not causated. to me, if i was ever good at art, i would occupy a position of a bacon, or an artaud, or a kafka. somebody who is good, yes, but not loved because they are good.

 

[telekon]

I'm an astrologer. If you tell me your birthday (MM/DD/YY) + rough location of birth I'll tell you what you're good at :)