Pain due to purging and laxative abuse

[FireFox]

I have been abusing laxatives the past month and have been purging one or twice a week after dinner time. I love how flat my stomach feels but the pain sometimes can be awful.

I have stomach cramps and end up feeling sick. This week my stomach was so much pain and I ended up throwing up involuntary. I frequently go to the toliet and can be in the toliet for many hours due to the laxatives i am using.

Purging i have a sore inflamed throat afterwards especially the longer i do it

I feel disgusting if i even enjoy a meal like i did last night.

I love my small frame and numbness to the pain i feel when purging.
The pain is so awful at the same time.

 

[Mentalmick]

I'm a bit confused, do you want to stop taking them and can't?

 

[FireFox]

I'm a bit confused, do you want to stop taking them and can't?

I love how it makes me feel but it is damaging my body long term.
I would stop if all my problems in my life were actually resolved so i wont have to numb everything.

 

[Mentalmick]

I know what you mean. I've ruined my digestive system and metabolism from years of overeating and starving myself. There's no way in hell I will ever be overweight again, no matter the consequences.