Over 2 years broken up and i still want to ctb.

[grasping_at_straws]

Every damn day all I think about is missing my ex.

That coupled with my career being gone makes me think about ctb all the time.

Not only that shit, but I also seem to be losing friends day by day.

Someone who was supposed to be one of my best friends won't talk to me or return texts, and last night I saw on Facebook that he's partying it up out in the dessert. I got so pissed I put him on ignore.

Seems like all I do now is see or hear about the success of others while I'm left behind depressed with no hope.

I lie my ass off to my councelor telling him I'm not thinking of cbt, but if I had a sure fire way of doing it I'd do it tonight.

 

[downndone2]

Im sorry you're going thru this. It's been 3 years here and I can relate on the loss of friends among huge financial loss and some other big issues. I hope things get better for us one way or another

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Im sorry you're going thru this. It's been 3 years here and I can relate on the loss of friends among huge financial loss and some other big issues. I hope things get better for us one way or another

Yeah, that's still hope. Hold on to it as long as you can.

Every damn day all I think about is missing my ex.

That coupled with my career being gone makes me think about ctb all the time.

Not only that shit, but I also seem to be losing friends day by day.

Someone who was supposed to be one of my best friends won't talk to me or return texts, and last night I saw on Facebook that he's partying it up out in the dessert. I got so pissed I put him on ignore.

Seems like all I do now is see or hear about the success of others while I'm left behind depressed with no hope.

I lie my ass off to my councelor telling him I'm not thinking of cbt, but if I had a sure fire way of doing it I'd do it tonight.

It took me years to get over my ex completely and start functioning halfway "normal" again. For me, it was short lived, though. A lot of other things took me down as well, and then, well, things just kept going down, down, down. But, I got over her. I'm at the point now where I'm nearing being done. My work here is done. Just winding it down.

 

[FuneralCry]

This life really is so depressing. I'm sorry that you are going through this, it must be so painful being in that situation. It is so awful when everything seems hopeless and other people often just seem to make things worse. I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from your suffering in whatever happens.