Venting Only alive because i need it

[Defatigatis]

I already mentioned it in my previous post, but practically I'm only alive because there are beings who NEED it me alive. But fuck...it's been so heavy to exist lately that i'm wishing i could just press a button to die without it having consequences for those close to me - I have about 7 months of wait to prepare for my departure from this world...i wonder myself if i will make it before having a mental breakdown from living every day in the same way with almost nothing to do to change my actual context...i've endured this pain for all these years, yet now it feels so much heavier than before.

For you that clicked in this thread, here is a song recomendation, thank you for reading:

 

[DivineSpark]

I keep going for sake of family and friends.

 

[polm]

So sorry. Thanks for the tune. I can relate. It's so hard keeping it together

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand finding it painful to exist, it's just so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I also just wish I could choose to cease existing but anyway I wish you the best.