I'd choose to permanently erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, I just want to disappear from this futile, torturous existence with no more pain and no more suffering, to me existence is an abomination and I'd just never wish to be burdened with this existence no matter what rather I only hope for some peace. I just want all to finally be gone and forgotten for me, I'll just always see it as so dreadful and terrible to suffer in this existence, for me non-existence really is all that's positive, I'd just never wish for this existence that just causes all this suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.