once again, trans suicide

[sweetbraid]

really suicidal atm and i want to try and ctb, but im scared that if it doesnt work ill be taken off of hormones. ive been on T for nearly six months now and it has significantly helped my sense of self and self esteem and stuff like that. but im still suicidal. do you think, from whatever your perspective is, that if i were to try and commit suicide and not succeed, that my doctor would be likely to take me off hormones? im pretty sure ive asked this before but im asking again. and i know you cant predict the future im just asking what you think, yk.
thank you for your time~

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

If the hormones don't cause emotional imbalances I don't see why they would. I guess it depends how fucked up you get attempting and it not working out. Which way are you thinking to do it? That sucks that you feel really bad. Do the hormones also cause emotional shit problems?

 

[Dear Agony]

Well I'm not sure if they would do that - but it doesn't make sense to me, since dysphoria actually worsens suicidal thoughts by a lot... But you know, I hate doctors so much lol. Some of them really don't know what they're doing.
If you're 100% you want to CTB, please plan out your method before. Failing is not fun and really just makes everything worse... You could try leaving a note in case you do fail though, explaining your feelings about the T and how it's actually helped you and you don't want it taken away?

 

[sweetbraid]

Well I'm not sure if they would do that - but it doesn't make sense to me, since dysphoria actually worsens suicidal thoughts by a lot... But you know, I hate doctors so much lol. Some of them really don't know what they're doing.
If you're 100% you want to CTB, please plan out your method before. Failing is not fun and really just makes everything worse... You could try leaving a note in case you do fail though, explaining your feelings about the T and how it's actually helped you and you don't want it taken away?

jesus how did i not think of that, the note thing lmao thats a very good idea. thank you!!!

If the hormones don't cause emotional imbalances I don't see why they would. I guess it depends how fucked up you get attempting and it not working out. Which way are you thinking to do it? That sucks that you feel really bad. Do the hormones also cause emotional shit problems?

i mean they do rearrange how you feel stuff in some ways, but after six months its not really a big deal and most people are mainly adjusted to how they feel stuff differently. generally trans suicide risks are very decreased my medical transition.
im gonna jump off a 12-storey bridge into one of the great lakes and i cant swim (there is no chance of me not drowning unless i get rescued)

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

I don't know your story...do things really fucking suck?

 

[sweetbraid]

I don't know your story...do things really fucking suck?

how bout i just message you and tell you about it?

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

i know you cant predict the future im just asking what you think, yk.
thank you for your time~

It's sobering that you even have to worry about that. If you've elected to have treatment, then you shouldn't be denied treatment unless medical experts believe the treatment is biologically harmful to you.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

how bout i just message you and tell you about it?

Yeah, message me please.

 

[Werewolf.]

how bout i just message you and tell you about it?

Could you message me, too?

 

[sweetbraid]

Could you message me, too?

sure yeah i dont see why not.

 

[Werewolf.]

sure yeah i dont see why not.

Thank you.

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

i have a weird problem.. i'm not trans, i identify as a woman. there's this group of assholes that tell me i'm trans and they use it as an insult which is horrible because there is nothing bad about being trans and it is not an insult. am i crazy or are these people just very childish?