Venting Once again the black waves of depression have been lapping at my feet

[BluesRunTheGame]

I think it might be to do with post-lockdown in the UK and me still being a NEET, while everyone goes back to their lives.

So tonight, once again, I am self-medicating.

Such an empty feeling, depression.

 

[Cherry Crumpet]

I know that feeling. I wish I could grab your hand and pull you out of the waves.

 

[WornOutLife]

Sorry to hear this, my friend.
The goddamn UPS and DOWNS really suck.

Hope better days come soon!

Hugs,

Matt

 

[loopylou]

I'm feeling really low too. Friends are all out enjoying themselves and I'm left uninvited again. :(

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I'm sorry you're feeling that way. I definitely can relate to feeling lonely and out of the loop. Oh well it won't be long anyway, possibly a 4th wave will cause people to go back inside lol

 

[Eire1992]

I can relate. I'm in Ireland and we're a few weeks or so behind ye're schedule of restrictions in the UK. Suddenly I have people messaging me trying to make plans. Lockdown hasn't really changed my life, I work from home. But I've come to some decisions over the past year and now that "normal" life is trying to resume, I both don't want it to or belong in it anymore. Lockdown pushed me to do what I've always found was one of the hardest steps when you're planning to CTB, cut people off. But it's done and I feel there's no going back. The stress of life trying to resume around me is like a lead weight in my stomach. This monster we carry on our backs, depression, is a right bastard sometimes.

 

[littleloup]

I feel for you and understand what you're going through. I'm also in "black waves of depression" as you've eloquently put it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I know what that empty feeling is like. Depression can take control over us.