On with the planning again.

[Empty Smile]

Got caught New Year's Eve preparing to ctb using the CO and tent method.

So now instead of hauling my tent, and Mr. Heater along with the fuel tank, I think I'm just going to go with hanging.

As usual, it's going to be in the woods where I want to ctb. I want it to be peaceful when I go. Now I just have to determine where to go. I'm thinking the Great Smokey Mountains.

 

[Jc40]

Why not try again with CO method, purchase bbqs or something similar? If you're still wanting to try

 

[Empty Smile]

Why not try again with CO method, purchase bbqs or something similar? If you're still wanting to try

That has been going through my mind as well. It's been a rough few days for me, bouncing back and forth trying to figure out this shit. Maybe I should just go into the woods and stay there. Just like my fucked up life, I can't even suicide right.

 

[21Neberg]

That has been going through my mind as well. It's been a rough few days for me, bouncing back and forth trying to figure out this shit. Maybe I should just go into the woods and stay there. Just like my fucked up life, I can't even suicide right.

Don't beat yourself up. Suicide's hard, and it sucks. I've failed to hang myself twice now, but I try to look at the bright side: every failed attempt (hopefully) ups my chances of succeeding next time!

 

[Empty Smile]

Don't beat yourself up. Suicide's hard, and it sucks. I've failed to hang myself twice now, but I try to look at the bright side: every failed attempt (hopefully) ups my chances of succeeding next time!

I know it's hard bud. But the more I have to live in this hellhole life, the worst it gets.

 

[Jc40]

That has been going through my mind as well. It's been a rough few days for me, bouncing back and forth trying to figure out this shit. Maybe I should just go into the woods and stay there. Just like my fucked up life, I can't even suicide right.

I like the idea of going into Woods and staying there, unfortunately we can't do that

 

[Empty Smile]

I like the idea of going into Woods and staying there, unfortunately we can't do that

Why can't we?

 

[Jc40]

I think my family would get me sectioned and land is owned but maybe they're excuses. I don't know then. It would be good to go and die out there because I don't have skills to live there. What bout you?

 

[MLongshaw]

I think my family would get me sectioned and land is owned but maybe they're excuses. I don't know then. It would be good to go and die out there because I don't have skills to live there. What bout you?
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I like the idea of going into Woods and staying there, unfortunately we can't do that

I like that idea. When my N arrives I hope to spend my last few days alone in the mountains, can't go wrong with nature

 

[Worndown]

Got caught New Year's Eve preparing to ctb using the CO and tent method.

So now instead of hauling my tent, and Mr. Heater along with the fuel tank, I think I'm just going to go with hanging.

As usual, it's going to be in the woods where I want to ctb. I want it to be peaceful when I go. Now I just have to determine where to go. I'm thinking the Great Smokey Mountains.

Simple is best.
Sorry you are there.

 

[dandan]

hanging and peaceful used in the same context?

I tried the Nitrogen Exit bag method and it was everything but peaceful.

anxiety and SI, and thoughts and emotions kick in.... not even drinking N is peaceful... I did the antiemetic regime but couldnt open the N bottle...

 

[John Smith]

Don't beat yourself up. Suicide's hard, and it sucks. I've failed to hang myself twice now, but I try to look at the bright side: every failed attempt (hopefully) ups my chances of succeeding next time!

full suspension or partial?

 

[21Neberg]

full suspension or partial?

Twice partial. I believe I got close to passing out, but I was too afraid to go on because I didn't know what would come after - if it'd hurt, if i'd get a spams or something, etc.

 

[Volomori83]

The spasms don't hurt. They feel strange for the second or two you're aware of them. Once you're out you're out, unless the support breaks or you're rescued or something.

 

[Purgatory]

I like the idea of going into Woods and staying there, unfortunately we can't do that

This is the perfect time of year to give it a shot. If you can find somewhere you'd be left alone. Plant a garden in time to harvest and preserve for winter. Such a nice dream! Society won't leave us alone though.