Okay, I lost again.

[BabyYoda]

So right after I posted my last thread, my special person messaged me about how he got the same character (again) in a gacha game. That alone made me happy, him messaging me when I'm not feeling well. He made me smile this time and he even said "its nighttime time to sleep" for the first time to me.

I'm really feeling better now. But hope is supposed to be shot down, right? No, it went up back again, preventing me to CTB. I know I should go because he doesn't love me the way I want him to. But everytime I set up a plan for CTB this happens, and I mean ALL THE TIME. He never fails to make me happy.

But is all of this real? Like, we're not even in a relationship, and he doesn't consider me my best friend or anything. Hope is truly a cruel thing.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I wanna say … I hope it works out for you (I really do) but I don't want to make the mistake of giving you false hope.