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Wolf Girl

Wolf Girl

Your friendly neighborhood suicidal wolf girl
Jun 12, 2024
315
I'm posting way too much, but I have so much to let loose.

I'm working towards becoming comfortable with death again, like I was when I had my near-lethal attempts. But I am stuck on the fear that death may not be non-existence and OCD makes me fixate on these thoughts.

I'm afraid of being reincarnated and things being worse. I'm afraid of being able to "watch over" my family and having to see them suffer. I'm afraid that ending my life won't end my consciousness and suffering. Even though I don't even really believe in all that stuff.

I want this all to get easier...
 
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Polyxo

Polyxo

Ring Ding Dong!
Mar 1, 2025
125
Do you mean being okay with death in order to die by suicide? If so, don't try to CTB unless you're absolutely certain it's what you want. I've postponed my CTB date countless times because of the same fears as you - reincarnation, an afterlife, or remaining as a spirit. If you have any doubts or fears about death, then there is no shame in acknowledging, accepting, and unpacking them. If you can introspect about death, then you can also do that for living.
 
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Gustav Hartmann

Gustav Hartmann

Enlightened
Aug 28, 2021
1,107
As we die anyhow we have to take what happens after death as it is. UNLESS the way we act in this world has an impact on our next world, for example heaven or hell, good or bad karma. So the reason for your fear is probably your cultural background that evaluates suicide as something bad.
In other cultures it is appreciated if someone who is a burdon for his community takes his life.
 
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homeboundcripple

Member
Jun 6, 2025
47
I'm posting way too much, but I have so much to let loose.

I'm working towards becoming comfortable with death again, like I was when I had my near-lethal attempts. But I am stuck on the fear that death may not be non-existence and OCD makes me fixate on these thoughts.

I'm afraid of being reincarnated and things being worse. I'm afraid of being able to "watch over" my family and having to see them suffer. I'm afraid that ending my life won't end my consciousness and suffering. Even though I don't even really believe in all that stuff.

I want this all to get easier...
the only thing that makes sense after we've gone is Eternal nothingness
 
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bananaolympus

Specialist
Dec 12, 2024
332
Okay lets say reincarnation is real, why do you think you would reincarnate into a human again? you could reincarnate into an insect with a short lifespan or a deva (god) massive lifespan the thing is you would not even know is your next life you got incarnated do you remember your previous life? so don't worry about whatever happens after death think about what do you want to happen after death to feel better
 
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monetpompo

monetpompo

૮ • ﻌ - ა
Apr 21, 2025
260
i would totally puke if i thought about reincarnation or the afterlife for too long lol. i would get irrationally angry if i had to live again and my life was any worse than what i have going on right now. i just refuse to believe that it's real since we have no sentience before we exist, so it must be the same when we die. when we fall unconscious in accidents or put under sedatives, then i imagine death being the same. the loss of senses and the inability to move or think. it's comforting to think it like that. i don't imagine pets going anywhere when they die.
 
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SchizoGymnast

SchizoGymnast

Mage
May 28, 2024
517
I'm posting way too much, but I have so much to let loose.

I'm working towards becoming comfortable with death again, like I was when I had my near-lethal attempts. But I am stuck on the fear that death may not be non-existence and OCD makes me fixate on these thoughts.

I'm afraid of being reincarnated and things being worse. I'm afraid of being able to "watch over" my family and having to see them suffer. I'm afraid that ending my life won't end my consciousness and suffering. Even though I don't even really believe in all that stuff.

I want this all to get easier...
What if reincarnation was real...and you learned something from this life that made your next life so much easier and better?
 
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set0553

set0553

самоубийство
May 16, 2024
146
I'm posting way too much, but I have so much to let loose.

I'm working towards becoming comfortable with death again, like I was when I had my near-lethal attempts. But I am stuck on the fear that death may not be non-existence and OCD makes me fixate on these thoughts.

I'm afraid of being reincarnated and things being worse. I'm afraid of being able to "watch over" my family and having to see them suffer. I'm afraid that ending my life won't end my consciousness and suffering. Even though I don't even really believe in all that stuff.

I want this all to get easier...
If I could only return as a dog.. my dogs are the only ones to have ever cared and truly love me, and show it constantly, not only because I feed and house them either, but because I'm kind to them and give them the respect they indeed deserve.. so id be OK returning as a dog, if in the right environment, like here with me. I wouldn't live too long, maybe 10-12 years, and someone to be my friend, wouldn't be as bad, as life is currently. 😂
 
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timechained

Experienced
Apr 15, 2025
204
If it's real then you're already a part of it and know that having no memory of a previous life is an essential part of it.
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
1,814
Don't worry it's not real.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
3,488
it's not real

No evidence

a soul afterlife reincarnation are meaningless abstract concepts. No details, can't break it up into smaller parts , can't see how or why it would work. For example Where is the power source for a soul etc.?

Anyone can say an idea or concept.

even a goal or problem is abstract and mostly meaningless until you break it down into smaller and smaller parts. the devil is in the details .you can write out a sentence for a goal or problem but it's the details or subproblems that have to be solved to solved the larger goal . for example if i say i want to commit suicide. that won't accomplish anything. i need to break that down into smaller parts . after much thinking and research i found several sugoals sub problems that i would need to solved before i can even get close. 1. decide on method .(means). 2. get ability to execute it ( defeat si). . 1 has been a book of subproblems i have to research several methods to see which ones i can get the requried equipment or supplies. then location. etc. i can keep going with subproblems here but until these smaller details are worked out the larger goal can't be solved.
 
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efil27

Member
Apr 30, 2025
8
I will tell you why reincarnation is false as someone born into a religion that has reincarnation as central pillar of it
1) if it was real you would have lived numerous previous life but you don't have any memory of even one now someone may say that you forgot your past memories as you grow up so my second point
2) have you seen all these reincarnation stories have a similarly if you guessed it it's the geographical boundary like if you ask an american person of his past life he will always say he was american or if you ask an European he will always say he was an European same way an Indian would always say he was an Indian in his past life
3)you will never hear someone born in america that he was an ainu( a tribe in japan) because he didn't even that exist reincarnation stories are based on the knowledge we had and until 100 years most people were geographically bound and didn't even know that others existed like my grandparents had no idea syria or Bulgaria existed and has their own unique cultures
To sum it up reincarnation stories existed as the same reason as religion the limited knowledge of our ancestors
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,988
When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became an adult, I put aside such childish things.
 
Love_Sick

Love_Sick

New Member
Jun 20, 2025
1
Personally, I would love to be reincarsinated since I don't like the life I'm living now.
 
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Britney Spears

Britney Spears

toxic
Jan 4, 2025
499
I would definitely be the same again, which means I'd have to do CTB again. And if I were reincarnated, I would do it again. Perhaps I had CTB on the guillotine in my past and was reincarnated now, and I have to do CTB again because of my situation. I don't want any more flesh for myself, only eternal nothingness. If I were a ghost, I would constantly haunt those who have caused me suffering and harm. I wish they really existed. I would be an evil spirit
 
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Aquiles292

Member
Jul 8, 2025
5
Don't complicate this life by thinking about the next life, solve this one and then we'll see.
 
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Haibane-renmei-reki

Haibane-renmei-reki

Student
Jan 23, 2020
154
I'm posting way too much, but I have so much to let loose.

I'm working towards becoming comfortable with death again, like I was when I had my near-lethal attempts. But I am stuck on the fear that death may not be non-existence and OCD makes me fixate on these thoughts.

I'm afraid of being reincarnated and things being worse. I'm afraid of being able to "watch over" my family and having to see them suffer. I'm afraid that ending my life won't end my consciousness and suffering. Even though I don't even really believe in all that stuff.

I want this all to get easier...
really does not matter as you would have 0 memories of your former life or awareness about reincarnation, it could be that this is your 59958th life on this planet without you realizing it.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
12,297
Do you believe you've already lived multiple past lives? Are your past lives troubling you or, the life you have now? The way I see it is- even if we are reincarnated- if we have already been reincarnated, the chances are we have no knowledge of past lives. Each life, we start again. Plus, you'll be someone else with different parents, in a different location and different era. We'd essentially be someone else as far as I imagine it. So- while I feel sorry for that future person, I don't see them as being me.

 
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Namelesa

Namelesa

Global Mod · Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
1,949
Just commenting to say don't insult or call people childish for having beliefs or worries of reincarnation as its about something about what happens after death and we have no confirmation on that.
 
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katara

katara

tired all the time
Mar 17, 2022
265
I feel this as someone born catholic. I am scared of dying even tho I have access to one being getting bit by a wild animal and getting a disease. I'm so scared tho, I feel extreme anxiety around dying. Sometimes I think maybe it's the shame and guilt I have that makes it impossible for me to die. That could be part of your issue as well.
 
AuraByte

AuraByte

If I'm lost, please don't find me.
Jun 24, 2025
37
I don't want to be reincarnated.

But I do hope there is something after, no matter how small. Because I made a promise to find someone.

The thought of that someone being sent to oblivion is what is sending me over the edge.

I deserve to go oblivion. Not them.
 
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LastDayOnEarth

Student
May 20, 2025
148
I would not accept it, I'm certain I'd end up killing myself again
 
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Fall_Apart

Fall_Apart

Student
May 22, 2023
119
I am convinced that emerging consciousness is a property inherent to every new life form. This is a cyclical and infinite pattern that perpetuates itself every time a living being is born, which means that the ability to experience existence will occur again, immediately after the previous death. But this concept is not reincarnation as some religions have hypothesized. Each new consciousness or ability to experience existence is completely separate from the consciousnesses previously experienced. This hypothesis scares me greatly because I would always prefer eternal non-existence.
 
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madwoman8

Member
May 7, 2025
66
It's such an interesting thing to think about. I love parallel lives / reincarnation stories like in books and movies. But yeah if it happens, we don't remember anyway and it won't be this life like many other people have said. I can only hope that my next life is better and for me personally, I hope I'm a lesbian again since I've barely experienced that in this life lol. But it is scary to think about what comes after and pretty sure every human wonders and we all die. I just can't imagine nothingness, like that's the most wild to me. Hopefully hell is not real. & I believe in ghosts but I don't want to be one (I would be curious how people are doing and maybe I'll still be able to read all the books I'll miss out on lol). We all no matter how we go have to come to terms with death. I mean obviously we don't know when our time is up so not everyone has this opportunity to make peace with it. None of us know and I honestly think it's best to think of whatever makes you most at peace with it. & it's this life many of us want to escape & have no control over what happens next. I still haven't made my peace with it but I'm also working on that & working on making peace with what I've done in this life.
 

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