OCD makes me want to end it all

[I hate it]

OCD sucks I hate this disorder so much.

 

[EnculerParLaVie]

Same here. It started when I was 20, am now 23. Can't sleep on top of that. Did you start medication?

 

[Pomegranate]

Had it since I was a teen. Absolutely devastating disorder. Tried so many medications, nothing worked.

 

[_Vasa&Me_]

Don't you just love it when the media and public at large thinks it's a "I am clean and organized" disorder instead of you know… a serious worrisome problem?

I cant stand the fact that its such a normalized expression for people to say "yeah I have OCD too" when they are talking about their organized room or school table and nobody bats an eye, its such a dehumanizing feeling, makes you feel like a joke.

Oh yeah Susan? You have OCD? Really?? Because your bedsheets are organized and you washed your hands TWICE instead of once after eating? Oh gee, you sure have a problem! Don't worry about me, I clearly have the same disorder as you!

Ignore the fact that I literally cannot stop thinking about my routines, or that I will physically tell myself "I don't wanna do this, I am so tired" and continue washing my hands for the 10th time because the soap did not feel the way I wanted it to feel on my hand to the point that my hands bleed in the winter because of it. Or the fact that I have to floss for 30 minutes because my gums did not feel a certain kind of pain when I touched them with it. Or maybe the fact that I have to recount everything I do inside my mind and if any sort of unusual sound is heard I have to restart. Or maybe me not being able to leave the bathroom because I did not like how the door knob is feeling on my hand and I have to close and open it again, and if I do it enough times I have to restart MY ENTIRE BATHROOM ROUTINE because my mind drifted off and now I am anxious again.

Yes Susan, you have OCD, its such a wonderful disorder, it makes you so organized and clean and quirky hehe, its awesome! I love it :)