Nothing's wrong I just want it to be over

[Soapie]

I'm just so over it y'know? Nothing really happened, like I'm fine. There's just nothing really for me here, which is okay. Nothing's just really meant for me. Whatever whatever whatever. Maybe I'll attempt again tonight or something just so I can feel a little hope. I know it won't work, it never does. It's more just to feel at peace. I can't believe the only reason my life is shit is because of a stupid chemical imbalance in my brain. Like I'm fine, my job is fine, I love my girlfriend so much, money's whatever. I just can't be happy and that's okay. Anyone know a nice spot in Calgary to jump off of?

 

[Bullit]

With all due respect,what do you want to ctb for?
You seem to be doing ok. Better than this ole cowboy! . But then,walk a mile in his moccasins, etc.

 

[motel rooms]

You seem to be doing ok.

Yeah, it's so obvious that he doesn't feel like an anhedonic zombie...

 

[Dear Agony]

With all due respect,what do you want to ctb for?
You seem to be doing ok. Better than this ole cowboy! . But then,walk a mile in his moccasins, etc.

Not all of us have one great big reason. That's something not suicidal people would assume.
People live for no reason. They work for hours a day just to put food on their plate, to retire when they're old. For a life we never asked for. Going through emotional and physical pain (because everyone does) we never asked for. Because of a survival instinct and species evolution, nothing else. All reasons to survive can be simply explained by biology.
People want to live for no reason. So why can't people want to die for no reason?

 

[Soapie]

Not all of us have one great big reason. That's something not suicidal people would assume.
People live for no reason. They work for hours a day just to put food on their plate, to retire when they're old. For a life we never asked for. Going through emotional and physical pain (because everyone does) we never asked for. Because of a survival instinct and species evolution, nothing else. All reasons to survive can be simply explained by biology.
People want to live for no reason. So why can't people want to die for no reason?

This sums it up pretty good for me. I'm just going through the motions out of obligation. I'm in an okay place but that doesn't mean I don't hate every second of it

 

[FuneralCry]

Depression can be really tiring to deal with. Just because someone appears to have everything and there is a lack of problems in their life doesn't automatically mean they are satisfied with it. Our own thoughts can torture us. I wish you well.