Nothing Left

[Saed]

Today,the words just don't come. There's nothing left anymore.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

I'm too low IQ to interpret this tbh, but I'm pretty sure it's a relatable feeling.

 

[Saed]

I'm too low IQ to interpret this tbh, but I'm pretty sure it's a relatable feeling.

Bloody hell,mate,I've gone into sub IQ points months ago.
That was the point,I guess. Not functioning on any type of intellectual level.
Taking a photo of a leaf. Bereft of all else...

 

[Deleted member 17949]

My brain has also turned to mush in it's attempt to deal with living. Good leaf in any event, thread is appreciated.

 

[somniummalum]

Well then, don't force yourself to function on a high level.

Maybe watch a favorite movie? Or Youtube?

 

[Saed]

Well then, don't force yourself to function on a high level.

Maybe watch a favorite movie? Or Youtube?

I just can't. Can't distract my mind at all.
Going for another walk...

 

[Completefailure]

I know those feels. Are you able to take a nap?

 

[Busdriver]

My IQ is also dropping. Doing things and thinking becomes harder. We are forced to experience every second and we 100% don't want it

Screw all daily activities and demanding tasks!

 

[Saed]

I know those feels. Are you able to take a nap?

Haven't slept in 3 days. Can't drift off.
Battery needs recharging.

 

[person123]

I also have nothing left, I should commit suicide, instead of talking about it.

 

[Raminiki]

Can you try some natural remedies to help with sleep maybe? Lavender, camomile tea, gentle music. Or food with lots of tryptophan/serotonin like wholemeal bread and pumpkin seeds. I got some epsom salts for my bath as magnesium is supposed to help with regular sleep. Walking sounds good. Try to be in the moment and focus on movement and rhythm. Look at nature, you might be surprised. I saw a shy mouse today, and the goldfinches brought three babies to the feeder. Little things matter.

 

[Saed]

Thank you all for being beside me.
Got meto today from the GP. It was more easy than I could ever imagine. One phonecall to the receptionist,who relayed the details to the Doctor.
Within 5 minutes,I had a text saying the script was at Boots.
So,have embarked upon an extended regimen,due to my stomach condition.
Wandered outside for most of today.
Feel detached from reality,as if I'm not quite able to tune in.
@Joxalldaita Thank you,love.
@Busdriver Thank you xxx

 

[person123]

Got meto today from the GP.

What else do you need?

 

[Brokenwithbpd]

You always react to my posts. I hope you are ok my friend. Message me anytime

 

[Saed]

What else do you need?

Not a thing,my dear.

You always react to my posts. I hope you are ok my friend. Message me anytime

Thank you,precious.

 

[person123]

Not a thing,my dear.

When do you want to commit suicide?

 

[Saed]

When do you want to commit suicide?

As stated,I have embarked upon an extended regimen. I am hopeful that I will be able to take the SN the day after tomorrow,but my stomach condition may prolong it further. I can only play it by ear.

 

[Raminiki]

Thank you all for being beside me.
Got meto today from the GP. It was more easy than I could ever imagine. One phonecall to the receptionist,who relayed the details to the Doctor.
Within 5 minutes,I had a text saying the script was at Boots.
So,have embarked upon an extended regimen,due to my stomach condition.
Wandered outside for most of today.
Feel detached from reality,as if I'm not quite able to tune in.
@Joxalldaita Thank you,love.
@Busdriver Thank you xxx

You must be relieved and anxious at the same time. I'm very glad to hear you got the meto rather than trying anything without. Look after yourself as best you can over the next few days. Try to see everything with wonder again before you go. A sunset. Rainclouds. Wind and the scent of flowers in the air. The comfort of your favourite pillows. Anything that will bring you calm.

 

[Saed]

You must be relieved and anxious at the same time. I'm very glad to hear you got the meto rather than trying anything without. Look after yourself as best you can over the next few days. Try to see everything with wonder again before you go. A sunset. Rainclouds. Wind and the scent of flowers in the air. The comfort of your favourite pillows. Anything that will bring you calm.

Am anxious over how my stomach may throw a spanner in the works. It'll either facilitate my exit due to the probable inability to hurl,or cause untold horrors if it's still not empty...

I appreciate the suggestions. You typing of those things,makes them seem all the more lovely.
Words cannot express how blessed I feel to have been graced by your company,here.
You're an exquisite angel on earth,in my eyes.

 

[Saed]

Well,there's a turn up for the books!
The meto is actually helping me with some issues.
It makes me realise,I should have been on meto for the past 2 years for medicinal purposes.

 

[aminend]

I hope a peaceful journey for u. Keep us updated man

 

[Saed]

Quick update. My desperation to ctb asap could be what would make this go wrong.
The meto is clearly helping clear my stomach and establish a digestive pattern.
I am going to be patient for a few more days.
I can't go into the full,shameful horror of the stomach condition...
If I explained it,though you may be utterly disgusted and in disbelief,what I've said above would make more sense.

 

[Raminiki]

You're doing the right thing and I'm happy you're being cautious. Be sure your course is steady before taking that ultimate step.