Nothing helps me deal with shit anymore

[TheHatedOne]

I'm in constant misery and existentially irritated and desperate. I just want these days to pass fast as fuck so I can CTB finally. But they go by so slow, and nothing helps distract me. In fact everything disgusts me rn. Video games? Don't even have motivation and if I do I either get bored quickly or angry. Music? I got bored of it. Reading? No motivation or if I do have any I get irritated after some time. Damn, even alcohol which used to be my main escape, I'm fucking disgusted by it now. Everything is fucking disgusting and I want to scream. If my fires of anger and existential crisis would be released, it would cover the whole world.

Even sleep is annoying rn because I sleep like shit and only for few hours.

I just want to bash my head or self harm in any way. I can't do this anymore.

 

[FuneralCry]

It can be dreadful when everyday is just suffering. I can relate to the time passing too slowly, I have no interest in anything and there is nothing I enjoy. I have never wanted to be alive. Whatever happens, I wish you the best. I know it is a hopeless feeling when nothing helps.