
paoS
Member
- Feb 23, 2023
- 15
Been a while since I've visited this site, glad its still up. I just saw an old vent post of mine where I wrote that I'm incapable of change, and even tho I learned a great deal about myself and the world in the past year, I'm still the same person in the same shithole position i was in back then. The hopelessness is ripping me apart. I wonder if I just got too comfortable living in my misery, or if it really isn't meant to be. I'm a notorious liar and the only thing I'm truly good at is giving the Impression of that really bright kid that just happens to be ill. I feel guilty because I'm just some privileged asshole crying for years, and there are people, certainly people on this site that would do anything for the support i receive and yet im still too shitty to get over it and change something in my life for once. I hope everything ends soon, i truly can't take another year of this shit