• Hey Guest,

    We wanted to share a quick update with the community.

    Our public expense ledger is now live, allowing anyone to see how donations are used to support the ongoing operation of the site.

    👉 View the ledger here

    Over the past year, increased regulatory pressure in multiple regions like UK OFCOM and Australia's eSafety has led to higher operational costs, including infrastructure, security, and the need to work with more specialized service providers to keep the site online and stable.

    If you value the community and would like to help support its continued operation, donations are greatly appreciated. If you wish to donate via Bank Transfer or other options, please open a ticket.

    Donate via cryptocurrency:

    Bitcoin (BTC):
    Ethereum (ETH):
    Monero (XMR):
cath55555

cath55555

Addict with a Pen
Feb 5, 2022
65
not sure what to do.

really feeling worse again recently. I have pretty severe bulimia and I've relapsed massively. I'm sick of the mental pain I go through when I wake up, do chores, exist. sick of the physical pain that my ed puts me through.

the only things stopping me at this stage are my cats. I'm 21, live alone, but my mum only recently moved out to live with her husband and so she regularly comes back or checks on me. so I know that they wouldn't starve or anything serious- I'd either be found or noticed as missing within a maximum of a day. but my cats wouldn't understand why I was gone. and I don't want to think of them going to unsafe homes... any advice on this? how do I probe for rehoming without giving away how I feel and what my intentions are? please help if you can.
 
catflowers

catflowers

Experienced
Jul 31, 2022
225
not sure what to do.

really feeling worse again recently. I have pretty severe bulimia and I've relapsed massively. I'm sick of the mental pain I go through when I wake up, do chores, exist. sick of the physical pain that my ed puts me through.

the only things stopping me at this stage are my cats. I'm 21, live alone, but my mum only recently moved out to live with her husband and so she regularly comes back or checks on me. so I know that they wouldn't starve or anything serious- I'd either be found or noticed as missing within a maximum of a day. but my cats wouldn't understand why I was gone. and I don't want to think of them going to unsafe homes... any advice on this? how do I probe for rehoming without giving away how I feel and what my intentions are? please help if you can.
hi if you need to rehome them i think you should give them away to a shelter instead because if you do commit suicide then the cats are fucked
 
  • Like
Reactions: cath55555
S

Smart No More

Visionary
May 5, 2021
2,726
Depends who you need to hide your intentions from. I imagine it would be easy to hide it from family if you only see them intermittently. Even on a daily basis. I actually had this very same concern a year ago and wrote a ehole thing on how to care for my cat. I would have (if I had the strength) contacted a rescue place and provided a pic and contact info and asked them to put me in contaxt with people looking for a cat. I'd have given them some specific perameters to vet people on before giving them my details and I would then vet them myself with further scrutiny. Honestly I don't think anyone would have met my expectations and probably wouldn't have jumped through my hoops but that was my plan. The reason I'd give to the prospective new owners and rescue sanctuary would be illness which is potentially terminal. When the time came it wouldn't matter that I ctb of my own doing. They'd probably just think I just got there first.

In the end I stuck around for my cat. I can't do it to her. Truth is it may have saved me. I feel like I made some improvements. Miles to go to be back to health and probably never will be but if I can get my mind and natural talents back I'll be more than happy!
hi if you need to rehome them i think you should give them away to a shelter instead because if you do commit suicide then the cats are fucked
That what she's looking for advice on.
 
  • Like
Reactions: cath55555

Similar threads

sera
Replies
12
Views
356
Suicide Discussion
Hystearical
Hystearical
R
Replies
5
Views
282
Suicide Discussion
red_cardinal
R
logar
Replies
2
Views
130
Suicide Discussion
voc_89
voc_89
dontwannadie
Replies
7
Views
269
Suicide Discussion
tonicer
tonicer
U
Replies
9
Views
326
Suicide Discussion
urgent
U