Not sure if i can wait

[Apricity]

I ordered my nitrogen from a winery and their shipping information says that they usually ship within one to two business days and that it only takes one business day to get to me since it's only a few counties over.

I placed my order on Friday but haven't even received any shipping information yet so I went to the website and checked and it's listing the ship date as the 20th.

Things are getting progressively worse for me at home; I'm losing a pound a day from not eating. I just want it all to be over and might try another method but fear getting locked up if it fails.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are suffering so much, living really is painful. The way you feel is understandable as it is hard to carry on when everything is hopeless. I wish you well.