Venting not being able to fix the stuff which destroys you

[_Minsk]

does anyone else feels like having little to no control over the things which tear you down? it feels unimaginably frustrating to deal with all this crap for years! and its not getting better, its getting worse ahhh!! looking back to that time where it all began, its just sad, i cant even express those feelings. its like having been home but now its all gone... i used to be healthy, still with some hardships here and there, but it was acceptable. but now, its just a mess, life is a mess, i just cant help it.. sorry:(

 

[OnlyTheWind]

Yes. I've almost completely lost the drive/ motivation to take any steps to changing and I know how it feels to not even be able to express what you are going through. Stuck in a rut, permanently; and help isn't coming.

 

[Good4Nothing]

I feel the same way. I wish I could fix my brain and be normal. But I've been this way all my life. The trauma started before I was even old enough to remember it. I was born to be broken. It would be okay if life was kind to me, but life seems to hate me. Every time I try to be happy, life kicks me back down in the shit. The harder I fight to improve my shitty life, the harder life fights back to keep me down.

 

[enuff]

yeah, do you mean like doing things or making decisions that fuck things up for yourself? like buying a car you don't need? or quitting your job because your boss is a prick, or your pay sucks? without another job lined up? or cutting yourself and leave visible scars? or embarrassing yourself and you just want to disappear but you cant because it would make matters worse? shit like that? yeah all the time. I just can't seem to help myself sometimes. you?

 

[Wayfaerer]

Yes. My life is a great big mess now with only one way to clean it up.

 

[AlreadyGone]

I know the feeling. I have been trying to fix certain aspects of my life for well over a decade and life keeps telling me that they cannot be fixed no matter how hard I try. At some point, it was time to stop fighting and throw in the towel.

 

[Jojo81]

Quitting smoking