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Venting Not again ...

SterileMoth

SterileMoth

Who knows man
Jul 9, 2020
74
I haven't posted on here in almost 5 months. I actually almost forgot about it, I mean it lingered enough in mind but not heavily, not ... not heavily.
But the past week or so they've been crawling back into my mind. I tried to ignore it and deny it and be happy but I'm not, I'm thinking about dying again. I don't want to be here, I feel stuck. I know it's stupid, look at everyone in worse situations thriving n shit. I'm a piss baby. I'd be better off a brief stain on the world anyway.
I think ... I am terribly tempted to OD now if I am honest. I'm at my partner's new place, with their new roommates, because they invited me to stay the night. I'd ruin it. I already ruin everything, so yanno ... It's like, one final fuck up? Not that big of a deal right.
Whatever.
It's fine.
I'm fine :)
I am so tired of dealing with this fucking brain.
Why can't I just be fucking normal why can't I just be FUCKING NORMAL.
 
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SweetDreams500

SweetDreams500

Narcissistic gay NEETcel
Apr 4, 2021
234
I wish I was normal too. It sucks to be divergent.
 
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avoid_slow_death

avoid_slow_death

Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
Feb 4, 2020
1,356
I'll just say you're not alone. Sorry you are feeling this way. Genuinely wish you didn't.
 
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MyrSS

MyrSS

Waiting to meet death
Apr 24, 2021
32
Normalcy these days seems like people being led by hedonism.

Not something I'd envy myself, but maybe if I had a choice to forget everything and be blue-pilled maybe I'd take it. I don't really know.

Also don't feel guilty, it's really not your fault. You're not a piss baby
 
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BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
Jan 26, 2021
5,845
SweetDreams500 said:
I'm built like a morbidly obese walrus with down syndrome and autism
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I'm built like someone that is going to fuck up the night-night and end up a vegetable.
 
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