I haven't had a single person in my life who I truly had a deep connection to or who cared about me. Literally the only person I could think of is my mum because she did tell me she loved me a few times growing up but was also very distant my whole childhood. Usually I don't care about being alone I actually prefer but very few months I'll have a period where it is on my mind a lot and really hurts. Does anyone else have this. Sometimes I don't want to actually die i just hate my existence I wish I could've been born as anyone else.
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Bitcoin (BTC):Ethereum (ETH):Monero (XMR):yea all the time. nobody cares or loves for me and it is impossible for me to create it. i have tried for 12 years. so i would rather be dead and look forward to it. this desire for others and need is a curse and nobody is interested in fulfilling it. cant wait to die. pray to god many nights thank you that i get to die.
rxcha
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- May 26, 2026
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feel that , had a few close friends but they dip pretty easy. if anything i can say from the bottom of my heart i hope you can prosper one day.
I understand, as a young child i used to hear conversations of my mother on the phone calling me dumb and harsh names at a young age. just because i had issues paying attention in school and getting upset easily i was 9 btw.
