no matter what happens in my life, suicide thoughts are always with me

[NothingElseMatters]

if something good happens, i still think about blowing my head off, i don't see a future, perhaps suicide could be easier.

 

[FuneralCry]

Thoughts of suicide are always with me as well, I understand. I have never wanted to be alive and I never will. I know that when everything is hopeless it is dreadful, I also see no future for myself. I wish you the best.

 

[Crazy4u]

I received unexpected good news 2 days ago. I paused for a second but decided later that it didn't matter. it is only temporary and ctb is the right solution

 

[forgotten15]

I am in the same situation, friend. Life is absolutely horrible and I can't wait to end it. I think good moments are just an illusion, they are temporary and the only constant in life is misery and suffering.

 

[Petunia]

I am in the same situation, friend. Life is absolutely horrible and I can't wait to end it. I think good moments are just an illusion, they are temporary and the only constant in life is misery and suffering.

I'm not sure my life qualifies as hopeless but I think I do. I haven't wanted to be for a long time but I'm not sure I can ctb. I'm more afraid of it going wrong and waking up to another even worse nightmare. Is is possible to just wish yourself gone?

 

[Brianiskillingme]

It never leaves my thoughts either. I have been in a pleasant situation but was researching SN and how you exit after drinking it on my phone. Even this past Xmas was depressing.