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dospi1

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I used to spend a lot of time alone, i used to truly enjoy it, hell i still do, to wander alone in my mind until i run out of imagination. but i simply cant now when i think now it will always go down the same rute of ctb toughts until i cause myself a crisis i wont get off easily. but i simply cant stop it, i structure everything arround me to give myself time to think, get a half time job; get friends that respect my space, hell even my degree needs long times of reflection, i simply no longer have control of where my thoughts go. ive been doing a lot better now but basicaly what im doing is stoping myself from thinking all the time, this cant go on i know this is a very short term now solutions and i sincerely think i wont survive another hard relapse; im lost for i can no longer find solutions for myself, hell im scared of myself i dont know what do.
 
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You're not the only one. I wish I could offer a solution.
 
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If our minds have been poisoned by some sort of abuse in the past, then time alone with our thoughts can be tantamount to living with our former abusers. Or, at the very least, an endless internal battle. In this situation, spending enough time around the right people can have a grounding effect.
 
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It may sound a little weird, but you might want to try a Christian meditation aid to get more control of your thoughts. Fasting (going without food for a period like a day) has been useful in prayer life. However, this might also be useful in regaining control of your thoughts. A person who fasts finds that the increasing hunger pangs tend to bring their wandering mind back to their intended purpose of prayer.

It might be possible to use this technique of reminders to jog you back to take control of your thoughts.If ot works, you might find that like the exercise of a long dormant muscle, this sort of practice can help bring back conscious control.
 
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Angi

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Maybe you can find something that helps you get your thoughts in a not quite so painful direction? I have spent a really painful time lately, and what really helped was to follow the impulse to go running. I never wanted to do that before, but somehow, it feels like I can run away from my own head, at least briefly. Maybe you have something that feels like it might help or at least distract you?
 
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