Venting No hope for me

[rationaltake]

I can't accept the state of this carcass I inhabit. And never will.

It ruins my every moment. I am always aware of it. I feel this flesh is rubbish. I feel inferior because of it.

I have several severe mental health conditions. I'm old so I should just go.

It's hard to explain it all. I don't feel this body is worthy of anything. So won't buy clothes. I see myself as a caricature if I have or wear anything nice.

I don't function. My neighbour is pretty much my carer. Absolutely adores me. It just hurts as I can't live like this.

I haven't explained it very well.

I have an amazing friend who really loves me.

I have SN plus an AE and an antacid.

I would want to live if my body wasn't covered in loose skin and stretch marks. Though I refuse to accept certain memories. So who knows?

Want to ctb. My neighbour will be devastated. Two people close to my neighbour committed suicide. My friend will be hurt.

Agony. Every moment.

 

[FuneralCry]

I am sorry that you are in so much pain, I can imagine that it must be unbearable. This life really can be so awful. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[rationaltake]

I am sorry that you are in so much pain, I can imagine that it must be unbearable. This life really can be so awful. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

Thanks. I know you don't want to live. I wish you the best too.

 

[Chiisai]

I can't accept the state of this carcass I inhabit. And never will.

It ruins my every moment. I am always aware of it. I feel this flesh is rubbish. I feel inferior because of it.

I have several severe mental health conditions. I'm old so I should just go.

It's hard to explain it all. I don't feel this body is worthy of anything. So won't buy clothes. I see myself as a caricature if I have or wear anything nice.

I don't function. My neighbour is pretty much my carer. Absolutely adores me. It just hurts as I can't live like this.

I haven't explained it very well.

I have an amazing friend who really loves me.

I have SN plus an AE and an antacid.

I would want to live if my body wasn't covered in loose skin and stretch marks. Though I refuse to accept certain memories. So who knows?

Want to ctb. My neighbour will be devastated. Two people close to my neighbour committed suicide. My friend will be hurt.

Agony. Every moment.

Your peace or someone's (your neighbour) well being, truly is a difficult choice. I feel you as Im in that dilemma too.

 

[rationaltake]

Your peace or someone's (your neighbour) well being, truly is a difficult choice. I feel you as Im in that dilemma too.

Thanks. I can't bear another second but I don't want to hurt someone who says I'm their world. I'm sorry you're in a similar position.

 

[Chiisai]

Thanks. I can't bear another second but I don't want to hurt someone who says I'm their world. I'm sorry you're in a similar position.

No worries. Not your fault. You must have a big heart for you to consider others' feelings over your own. I hope when the time comes, you will be repayed for your kindness.

 

[rationaltake]

No worries. Not your fault. You must have a big heart for you to consider others' feelings over your own. I hope when the time comes, you will be repayed for your kindness.

My friend and neighbour have been absolutely wonderful to me. Thank you for your really kind and thoughtful reply. You must have a big heart too.

I like your avatar btw.