No alcohol, no drvgs,

[lekomania]

I just took 10mg of diazepam.

I'm not drinking since may 14th.
Not doing drvgs currently.

Did my makeup, it's pretty late here.

I don't know what i'm excepting.
I guess, to my thoughts go away.

My partner hates me because of my past. Not like it's crazy. But it's crazy for him.

Oh well, i'm alone in this sgit.

But i'm not drinking, isn't that what matters?
Im going for a walk. I hope i won't trip or something

 

[The Morningstar]

Been living the sober life myself (was dependent on opioids, I stay away from everything now). Given time, it's gotten easier. Not sure what your long-term goals are, but if it's total sobriety, I'm sure you'll do well. Either way, tho, congrats! You are almost a month off alcohol!
Sorry to hear you are having a tough time with your partner. How long have you been together?

Hey, no matter what, I hope you enjoyed your walk.

 

[lekomania]

Been living the sober life myself (was dependent on opioids, I stay away from everything now). Given time, it's gotten easier. Not sure what your long-term goals are, but if it's total sobriety, I'm sure you'll do well. Either way, tho, congrats! You are almost a month off alcohol!
Sorry to hear you are having a tough time with your partner. How long have you been together?

Hey, no matter what, I hope you enjoyed your walk.

Thank you!
I'm a little proud of myself for this accomplishment.
My walk was… Well, i don't remember most of it. But i remember it was soothing. So i guess that's good.

We've been together for few months. Know each other for almost a year. We pretty much don't have an anniversary date, so u can't really tell how long we've been together

 

[The Morningstar]

We've been together for few months. Know each other for almost a year. We pretty much don't have an anniversary date, so u can't really tell how long we've been together

Yeah, that's modern dating in a nutshell. Situationships, you know? Is this the LDR you mentioned from last month? They can be all sorts of draining. I've been in a couple myself, and we can talk about it anytime you like.

Hey, if you suspect you might have BPD, while I don't have it myself, I'd like to show you a post from a person on here who does have it. Maybe you'll find their knowledge useful:

I have BPD and Pure-O OCD. I am 37 years old. It's a LONG journey! A marathon. The key is regulation, regulation, regulation. Every. Single. Day! No I can't go out and stay late night to midnight or 1am, even if its once or twice a month. No I can't casually drink alcohol or smoke pot. No I can't try to take up too many big social activities or endevours. I have to constantly stabilize, stabilize, stabilize. Yoga meditation baths cooking end up taking the most of my focus. And I really love it too. My BPD forced me to a live a better, happier, stable life. It's going to be hard for a while but it's managable and life can be enjoyable but you gotta continue to ground and stabilize... emotional regulation.

Unfortunately, @jadeturtle hasn't been on in weeks, but they seem to know what they're talking about. But, like I said, when it comes to that, I have no idea. There is no shortage of members with BPD on here either, so they're more than welcome to weigh in.