Next month i will jump

[Laba]

I have arrived at the point where my decision is finally made. I've been looking for a way to make it as painless as possible. I live in Germany, here there are hardly any possibilities to get SN or anything else. So I decided to jump off a tall building. I live in a house that is 7 stories high. There is another one in my town that is slightly higher. I'll go there soon and see how high it is. I want to make sure that's high enough. Sorry for my bad English. Maybe there are more from Germany here that I can talk to.

 

[Nlis2244]

Good luck with your exit. I too plan to do it in the next few months by jumping. But i don't know if 7 stories is enough, I fear you would have a reasonable chance of failing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Jumping does sound like a terrifying way to leave this world and I know that I could never be able to ctb that way, but I understand feeling like you are desperate and that you have no other option. It is so unfair how people are restricted access to ctb methods. To me it is cruel how the society tries to force people to live against their wishes. I'm sorry that it has come to this point for you and I hope that you find relief from your suffering in whatever happens.

 

[Laba]

Good luck with your exit. I too plan to do it in the next few months by jumping. But i don't know if 7 stories is enough, I fear you would have a reasonable chance of failing.

Thank you. I hope its high enough. Looks like the other building is much more higher. The next days i will check out if its easy possible to get in and if its possible without a key or somithing to reach the highest stories.

Jumping does sound like a terrifying way to leave this world and I know that I could never be able to ctb that way, but I understand feeling like you are desperate and that you have no other option. It is so unfair how people are restricted access to ctb methods. To me it is cruel how the society tries to force people to live against their wishes. I'm sorry that it has come to this point for you and I hope that you find relief from your suffering in whatever happens.

Yeah you're right. It sounds really terrifying and i'm so freaking scared. But i have no other way... So i have to be brave one last time.
I wish there would be a much more humanity way for all of us...

Actually i'm at this point in my life, i have no more family, no more friends. Every one gives a shit on me because i just dont fit in this society. My mental health is at its end and i'm feeling so empty and exhausted.

I have no job, no money. I dont want to live another 30 years with nothing in my life. In the next few days i will write farewell letters and set a date for the next month.