Hello you guys who tune in. I'm sitting, like most days, alone at home on my balcony wishing I had the courage to end it.
I've been suicidal for many years, and have considered many options. At first trains, then for a while i tried hanging without success. Firearms are nearly impossible to get ahold of in my country so these days I think more about cutting. Which leads me to my questions.
Ive researched a little about the external cartoid artery and from what I understand it is a huge vein that is located quite close to the skin. I can see it pumping on the side of my neck. It seems this forum advices against cutting your neck, but I would still like to articulate a set of specific questions I havent really seen about here.
• would it be enough to cut only on one side of the neck?
• do you really have to cut through muscle and nerve when you go for the external cartoid artery?
I also don't get the pain part. I guess you would get a pretty shitty headache from the bloodloss, and well shit, yeah also fear, but I feel that comes with all methods. How high are the risks of not suceeding after passing out? I mean like waking up with permanent brain damage
my dream is just making a nice cut on the left side of my neck, starting to bleed alot and just going to my bed and falling to [permanent] sleep in the comfort of my own home
Thank you for discussion
I've been suicidal for many years, and have considered many options. At first trains, then for a while i tried hanging without success. Firearms are nearly impossible to get ahold of in my country so these days I think more about cutting. Which leads me to my questions.
Ive researched a little about the external cartoid artery and from what I understand it is a huge vein that is located quite close to the skin. I can see it pumping on the side of my neck. It seems this forum advices against cutting your neck, but I would still like to articulate a set of specific questions I havent really seen about here.
• would it be enough to cut only on one side of the neck?
• do you really have to cut through muscle and nerve when you go for the external cartoid artery?
I also don't get the pain part. I guess you would get a pretty shitty headache from the bloodloss, and well shit, yeah also fear, but I feel that comes with all methods. How high are the risks of not suceeding after passing out? I mean like waking up with permanent brain damage
my dream is just making a nice cut on the left side of my neck, starting to bleed alot and just going to my bed and falling to [permanent] sleep in the comfort of my own home
Thank you for discussion
