New here, suicidal, mentally ill, lost all hope.

[ghostgirl1995]

I finally decided to make an account on here. I am completely done with my life I have messed everything up and everyone hates me. I have tried a ton of meds, therapy, psychiatry basically everything. I want to book a hotel and leave. I've failed cbt multiple times. I need help with the door knob method of hanging and how to tie it all properly. I feel like I don't do it quite right. I feel like no matter what I do I fail. Covid has me anxious because my parents are constantly on watch. I don't want to go sit in a ward getting sedated until I can get out and try again :(

 

[madbananas]

You sound like me I'm here if you would like to chat. I wonder what makes you feel everyone hates you? I'm currently going through that and it's making me so stuck.

 

[gomenasai]

It shouldn't matter to you if everybody hates you or not. You should ACCEPT yourself and live however YOU please as it is your life and your choice what to do with it.

 

[Himalayan]

It shouldn't matter to you if everybody hates you or not. You should ACCEPT yourself and live however YOU please as it is your life and your choice what to do with it.

Well. Guess the choice was suicide?

 

[gomenasai]

Yes

Well. Guess the choice was suicide?

Yes

 

[FuneralCry]

This thread is years old now. It's probably a bit too late to give them advice. I hope that the OP found freedom from their suffering.

 

[gomenasai]

This thread is years old now. It's probably a bit too late to give them advice. I hope that the OP found freedom from their suffering.

Sorry, I didn't see that. I also hope that the OP found peace.