Why can't I just get a gun and shoot myself in the brain. Wouldn't it be such a quick, painless, easy, simple and reliable way to ctb
For a long time I considered going on holiday to the US to rent a gun (from what I found tourists cannot purchase firearms) and doing it that way but I don't think I could take it out of a range where there wouldn't be anyone to witness it
I couldn't find much info on black powder other than it's expensive to go that route
I won't be getting a car any time soon meaning no CO for a nice cozy forever-sleep
Exit bag method is sooooo convoluted and I wouldn't be able to do it myself anyway
Jumping in front of a train is reliable but traumatises the driver, anyone around and those who have to sweep up the mess on a level I probably couldn't ever fathom, not to mention it'd likely be extremely painful for me given my local station has electrified railways (on top of being hit by a train that's probably going to be slowing down)
SN is peaceful enough but getting an AE is a pain in the ass (I would not be likely to successfully lie to my GP, and the fact the purpose is to ctb might even be caught out given that I've attempted before depending on how aware UK medical staff are of SN as method of ctb), there's too much variance in anecdotal evidence for me to consider it reliable (vomiting; time it could take to die; some ingest a tiny test amount and die or come close to dying, others take the full amount, AE included, and survive) and if in the potentially 4 hour timespan it could take for me to die I'm interrupted then not only will I certainly not be able to attempt again at all but I risk permanent brain damage
Night-night method might actually be the way to go but I would probably struggle to set it up correctly and if it fails for whatever reason I again risk permanent brain damage (and there's no fucking way I'm meeting up with a partner)
I wish I was born in the US, where I could easily get a gun and shut the lights. I wish I lived in a dream world where individuals' freedom to exercise their right to die was enabled and I could hop into one of those nitrogen pods so I could peacefully fall asleep under the supervision of a medical professional. Ffs I wish I was Stockton fucking Rush so I could've instantly died without processing anything whatsoever, I get so jealous whenever I hear anything about the Titan submersible because I so wish I was there. I wish I wasn't such a pussy so that none of that mattered to me to begin with, and I could just go with whatever.
Maybe all of this is just the average Europoor's misconception of the US but I imagine even in the most restrictive states it's so much easier to ctb that way and practically impossible 'cross the pond
For a long time I considered going on holiday to the US to rent a gun (from what I found tourists cannot purchase firearms) and doing it that way but I don't think I could take it out of a range where there wouldn't be anyone to witness it
I couldn't find much info on black powder other than it's expensive to go that route
I won't be getting a car any time soon meaning no CO for a nice cozy forever-sleep
Exit bag method is sooooo convoluted and I wouldn't be able to do it myself anyway
Jumping in front of a train is reliable but traumatises the driver, anyone around and those who have to sweep up the mess on a level I probably couldn't ever fathom, not to mention it'd likely be extremely painful for me given my local station has electrified railways (on top of being hit by a train that's probably going to be slowing down)
SN is peaceful enough but getting an AE is a pain in the ass (I would not be likely to successfully lie to my GP, and the fact the purpose is to ctb might even be caught out given that I've attempted before depending on how aware UK medical staff are of SN as method of ctb), there's too much variance in anecdotal evidence for me to consider it reliable (vomiting; time it could take to die; some ingest a tiny test amount and die or come close to dying, others take the full amount, AE included, and survive) and if in the potentially 4 hour timespan it could take for me to die I'm interrupted then not only will I certainly not be able to attempt again at all but I risk permanent brain damage
Night-night method might actually be the way to go but I would probably struggle to set it up correctly and if it fails for whatever reason I again risk permanent brain damage (and there's no fucking way I'm meeting up with a partner)
I wish I was born in the US, where I could easily get a gun and shut the lights. I wish I lived in a dream world where individuals' freedom to exercise their right to die was enabled and I could hop into one of those nitrogen pods so I could peacefully fall asleep under the supervision of a medical professional. Ffs I wish I was Stockton fucking Rush so I could've instantly died without processing anything whatsoever, I get so jealous whenever I hear anything about the Titan submersible because I so wish I was there. I wish I wasn't such a pussy so that none of that mattered to me to begin with, and I could just go with whatever.
Maybe all of this is just the average Europoor's misconception of the US but I imagine even in the most restrictive states it's so much easier to ctb that way and practically impossible 'cross the pond
