Venting Never going to experience love

[Saki]

This is just a random vent idk. I just.

Feel bad that I will never will really experience love..like probably and not just "online". I had distant relationships before. I just feel like I am missing out that part of life. I think my life won't be long anyway. It's just painful seeing everyone my age getting a partner of having friend and being happy. It makes me feel like something is broken about me. I'd be nice to have someone to hug just without being questioned or something...Even tho I struggle with attraction I still want to experience it in a way. I hate depression it sucks the live out of me.

 

[bipolar22]

Finally had my first relationship with 27. Honeymoon face was amazing but once that pasts all my problems ans pains returned.
What I'm saying is yes it can be good for a while but by no means enough to fix any I'd my pain and my issues. Gf is sleeping right now. I'm on my 12th day of xanax binge. Lonely. And with the amount we spend away from each other because of stupid work just to live in this dump it's a bit disappointing to say the least. Doesn't mean I don't love here. But we don't even have enough time together to work on our issues. Not all rationships.are like that but with full time work it's like almost being single emotionally wise. Maybe that's me though. But maybe you're not missing out on a huge deal. I'm 80 percent as miserable as when I was single. tbh maybe this is a bit of a consolation for you. Sorry to hear about your feelings I know what's it like to crave for a loving partner

 

[onlyforever1]

I've never even had an online relationship. It's one of the most crushing things for me, to know I will never be loved.

 

[twilightSparriw]

This is just a random vent idk. I just.

Feel bad that I will never will really experience love..like probably and not just "online". I had distant relationships before. I just feel like I am missing out that part of life. I think my life won't be long anyway. It's just painful seeing everyone my age getting a partner of having friend and being happy. It makes me feel like something is broken about me. I'd be nice to have someone to hug just without being questioned or something...Even tho I struggle with attraction I still want to experience it in a way. I hate depression it sucks the live out of me.

Let's hug

 

[divinemistress36]

Romantic relationships are usually temporarily

 

[pyranha]

i don't think there's anything wrong or broken about you- what you feel is very common. i don't say that in a dismissive way at all, your feelings matter no matter how unique or common they are- i mean it more so to say that you are not alone. millions of people would say that they feel they're not meeting up to social expectations regarding romantic relationships- not having kissed anyone yet, not having had one yet, not having had sex yet, and more.

lots of people want to experience life to the fullest, and it can be disheartening to see everyone around you being 'so far ahead'. you don't need to find a romantic relationship in any specific period of time, though- there's no correct age range in which you're allowed to have your firsts. there's also nothing wrong with wanting to search for it nonetheless. what i will say, though, is don't let the rose colored version that people talk about get to you. there are many successful relationships out there, and having a crush and dating in real life can feel great, but i promise you that most of the people whose relationships you hear about aren't telling you everything.

take my sibling for example. she would tell you that her relationship is great and that they're completely in love. what you wouldn't know, because you don't have the same day to day proximity that i do, is that her partner almost never remembers to do house work. he has to be reminded dozens of times before he finishes something. she's the one who does most of the housework, and her attempts to equalize it have failed.

there's nothing wrong with you for wanting to feel attraction and love, but don't let others fool you. people usually only tell/show you the nicest parts. i hope you're able to find a happy relationship someday

 

[LigottiSchopenhauer]

Finally had my first relationship with 27. Honeymoon face was amazing but once that pasts all my problems ans pains returned.
What I'm saying is yes it can be good for a while but by no means enough to fix any I'd my pain and my issues. Gf is sleeping right now. I'm on my 12th day of xanax binge. Lonely. And with the amount we spend away from each other because of stupid work just to live in this dump it's a bit disappointing to say the least. Doesn't mean I don't love here. But we don't even have enough time together to work on our issues. Not all rationships.are like that but with full time work it's like almost being single emotionally wise. Maybe that's me though. But maybe you're not missing out on a huge deal. I'm 80 percent as miserable as when I was single. tbh maybe this is a bit of a consolation for you. Sorry to hear about your feelings I know what's it like to crave for a loving partner

It's interesting to read this site as someone who has never been in a relationship and is a 27-year-old virgin myself. On the one hand, I've heard several stories about people who had their first relationship in their late 20s, which give me hope. On the other hand, every one of these stories includes the author saying that it didn't end up solving their underlying issues and they're still depressed. I'm not sure how to feel about this.

 

[slightoverlooked]

same here. and i understand that some ppl have bad experiences and/or dont see the good in it but i feel like i would feel sm better with a romantic partner even if its not always lovey dovey...

 

[iw2begone]

I think I felt romantic love for someone else for the first time last year, but it's brought me nothing but despair as it doesn't feel reciprocated.

 

[tiredash]

i feel the same, but im not young, im old and missed everything... there is very little hope for me, if any...

 

[bobblong]

Before loving someone else , love yourself first . I know you're all beautiful human beings :)

 

[TheLastGreySky]

This is just a random vent idk. I just.

Feel bad that I will never will really experience love..like probably and not just "online". I had distant relationships before. I just feel like I am missing out that part of life. I think my life won't be long anyway. It's just painful seeing everyone my age getting a partner of having friend and being happy. It makes me feel like something is broken about me. I'd be nice to have someone to hug just without being questioned or something...Even tho I struggle with attraction I still want to experience it in a way. I hate depression it sucks the live out of me.

Honestly, I've always had subs (some of them are platonic) because I don't really feel any love for myself without giving love. And there's really nothing you can do with anyone that's going to feel as amazing and "right" as holding someone in your arms and just letting them Yap about any silly thing because they feel comfortable doing that with you.

Love is a hard drug that I honestly wouldn't recommend to anyone, but intimacy between two lonely human beings? That's something pretty special.

 

[glitterycheese]

Feel this. Even if I have people who love me as friends and family, deep down it's the feeling of being for someone man. had my first sort of breakup back in december and I am this close to blocking the person then offing myself so they can truly forget about what we did.

I still think about the one night we walked along the city streets after throwing rocks in the lake.

I have my note to him and i'm either going to give him the link before or after this week. I know I sound crazy but this has happened too many times to me before.

Hell even tonight there's still dark in the sky so I have time.

Love is a scam, and i want no more of it from anyone.

 

[living.dead.girl]

I found love at 29. Was incredibly nihilistic and became a shell of a human up until then, wanted to die and for the world to burn.
I've turned a new leaf, and didn't realize at the time.
I see a lot of this pain today. Manifesting in confused individuals who are in absolute denial of reality and I see their pain but can not do anything because they need to realize that they are the ones responsible for their own perceptions.

 

[bhaloo]

It's OK not to find love. Some people are not built for it. I am one of them. I accepted my fate. im comfortable with the thought that I will be able to end my life painlessly. I didn't find it.

 

[legoshi]

This is just a random vent idk. I just.

Feel bad that I will never will really experience love..like probably and not just "online". I had distant relationships before. I just feel like I am missing out that part of life. I think my life won't be long anyway. It's just painful seeing everyone my age getting a partner of having friend and being happy. It makes me feel like something is broken about me. I'd be nice to have someone to hug just without being questioned or something...Even tho I struggle with attraction I still want to experience it in a way. I hate depression it sucks the live out of me.

I felt every part of this. I don't think I will ever know what it's like either to be loved and cared for either. I get it though, I'm very flawed. I'm not the most attractive person, I'm pretty awkward, have social anxiety, and I might be autistic (based off others assessments). So yeah not really the characteristics people go after. Though I do wish I could experience feeling like I matter.

 

[ClippedWings]

I found love at 29. Was incredibly nihilistic and became a shell of a human up until then, wanted to die and for the world to burn.
I've turned a new leaf, and didn't realize at the time.
I see a lot of this pain today. Manifesting in confused individuals who are in absolute denial of reality and I see their pain but can not do anything because they need to realize that they are the ones responsible for their own perceptions.

You're missing vast perspectives. Chronic back and nerve pain ruined my chance at achieving anything I value. If that love deludes you into having children, you'd be committing an act of evil, because you'd risk the recreation of me or worse. You're only ever lucky to have felt positive emotion rather than negative. You never deserved anything good or bad that ever happened to you. Do not let love delude you into forgetting the chance that your child is incurable and finds themselves looking for methods on a site like this.