Need something

[painoflife]

If I am to carry on then I need something, something to change or something to happen. I just don't know what that thing is.
I'm really struggling right now and every minute I am thinking about and wishing I was already gone. I don't know how to get through this and I really don't want to, but I feel like I owe it to other people to try. I don't know when I can be satisfied that I did try but it hasn't worked.

 

[SpottedPanda]

Occasionally I'll try to 'escape myself', I simply thing of what I can do to make the biggest, most profound positive changes.

Maybe you need something to shake up the routine, something that engages you.

 

[painoflife]

Maybe you need something to shake up the routine, something that engages you

That's a good idea thanks but it's difficult in my situation, I am a full time carer to my partner.

 

[SpottedPanda]

That's a good idea thanks but it's difficult in my situation, I am a full time carer to my partner.

That must be fulfilling and difficult at the same time.

 

[painoflife]

That must be fulfilling and difficult at the same time.

It depends what kind of day you catch me on lol